Page 174 of The Royal Beast & His Queen

"LEAVE", Isha commanded and everyone left from there without a second thought, luckily the family's chambers were away from the king's chamber, so they didn't know about it.

"Why did you do it ? What happened ?", Abhyansh asked calming down a bit... "D...Did it trigger your past ? I'm so sorry I hurt you then... I'll do anything to make up for it bacha... but please don't suffer yourself like this, I was so scared seeing....", Abhyansh trailed but Isha cut him off... Hearing his regret-filled words didn't go well with her, It's been more than 3 years sincethat incident, she has forgiven him, he had made up for all his sins, yet he tortured himself for all the pain he caused her, if her past pain is hurting him to date, then wouldn't his present pain and regret hurt her? Why is he not understanding her?

"I set it on fire because I peed on it", she replied casually, causing him to look at her with worry and pain...

"Bacha... you are scaring me, Don't hide your pain from me... tell me, is something bothering you? Is something hurting you, Rani sa ?", he asks her

"Do you tell me if something is hurting you ?", she asked him making him narrow his eyes... "Let me get this straight, you didn't forgive yourself, you are spending every second of your life in guilt and regret, do you think it wouldn't hurt me to see you like this ?", Isha asked him, holding his collar...

"Isha... You are not in the right mind, let's get you changed and put you to bed, hm ? We can talk about this tomorrow", he said but she pulled him harshly towards her, fire blazing in her eyes...

"Not tomorrow, we will talk today, now... Let go of the past, forgive yourself", Isha told him, pleaded him, she couldn't see him like that anymore...

"The things I did to you doesn't deserve forgiveness bacha, please understand me", Abhyansh said

"You have made up for all those things, please... It's hurting me even more to see you like this", Isha said, finally letting her tears drop... He pulled her into a hug calming her down, No, he couldn't see his wife like that, he couldn't hurt her again, but forgiving himself was out of option... He closed his eyes to do the one thing he would hate doing...

"Okay, I'll try to forgive myself, It will take some time, but I will try", Abhyansh said, and he felt his wife visibly calming down... He gently kissed her forehead, before cleaning her and changingher into a comfortable maternity gown, before taking her to their second bedroom. Due to tiredness, sleep took over her, but his was evaded for months now... her suffering never let him sleep, not in the past, not now.

"I'm sorry", he apologized to her, for lying...

For the next whole day, Isha stayed inside their chamber as she didn't feel like going out, how she set the bed on fire felt so bratty to her, and the reason seemed embarrassing, her emotions were all over the place, she was scared of her mood swings so she avoided meeting people especially Bhairav who helped in putting off the fire.

But the next day, she woke up, her husband helped her freshen up and wear her maternity gown. She started wearing maternity gowns Ragini designed for her, right after her baby shower that occurred in her 7th month. It was a grand event but due to tiredness, and exhaustion, she slipped to her chamber early that day. Isha's thoughts broke upon hearing her husband.

"Go and talk to Bhairav... He was scared for you, yesterday he asked me at least 10 times about how you were", Abhyansh said and Isha felt guilty.

She walked out of the chamber where she spotted Bhairav. Of course, he would be standing there, after all in Abhyansh's absence, Bhairav was asked to take care of Isha, and in their language, taking care meant stalking her like her Shadow.

"Rani sa... How are you doing?", he asked, Isha forwarded her hand which Bhairav held, and slowly helped her walk to the elevator to reach the dining hall.

"Bhairav... I am sorry, I might have scared you that day...", Isha said and Bhairav nodded, accepting her apology.

"Don't do that again, Rani sa... I was so scared. If you are upset with Maharaj... Show it on him, but don't risk yourself like that...", Bhairav said

"I wasn't risking, I was at a safe distance... Anyway you were right, I shouldn't have done it in the first place... By the way, what do you mean by if I am upset with Rana sa ? ", Isha asked

"Whatever is upsetting you, is upsetting me as well, Rani sa, I couldn't see Hukum like this, but according to him, it was his way of giving himself peace, you were only looking at it in a single direction that he is suffering himself, but look at it from the brighter perspective, it was his way of love, and loving you always gave him peace", Bhairav said and Isha looked at him in awe... He changed her perspective, though she is still against her husband hurting himself mentally by not forgiving his past self, she now decided to give him some more time to forgive himself, now that he had told her he would try, then he would.

"Bhairav... Why didn't you marry ?", Isha asked suddenly, Bhairav seemed a very mature man and he would make a very good lover and husband, why did this elder man not marry, doubts filled Isha's mind.

"That's a story for another day, Rani sa", Bhairav said, helping Isha sit on the dining table.

Abhyansh made his way, since Isha couldn't stand, he allowed everyone to stay seated and joined them. Well, that was a first and Isha smiled at the changes in her husband, he started treating his family more like their son, brother, and grandson, not as a king, though the things were minor, it brought bliss to his family, especially his mother, he allowed her to sit beside him and serve while having her food. The privilege only Isha got till date was now given to Amruta as well, though she knew it's just until Isha's delivery, still it made her happy.

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Isha's false labor got more frequent and Abhyansh's panic was on the rise. His wife's discomfort and pain snatched the peace from him completely.

"Ansh...", she called her husband who was working on the couch as according to him, the laptop radiations weren't good for the babies. He restricted her from using phone much, if she wanted to, she could operate her phone through a remote as her phone was connected to their TV. He was beside her in the next few seconds pushing aside his laptop.

"What happened ? Are you hurting bacha ?", he asked slowly ruffling her hair...

"No... I wanted ice cream...", Isha said

"Okay, I'll ask someone to get it, which flavor", he asked and she frowned.

"I like only one flavor Ansh", she said and he nodded, praying his Mahadev to help him pass this situation without making his wife cry but looks like Mahadev wanted to play with him. His wife is right, she likes only one flavor, but at one time, and her preference keeps changing from time to time, especially these days. He tried his luck by getting her recent favorite, custard apple flavor, and the face she made, forced him to throw it into a dustbin.

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