Page 65 of Her Cold-Hearted Alpha: Part 2

Fuck.

I ran my fingers through my hair. This wasn’t meant to happen… Shit… I had knocked her up and I hadn't even had the chance to fucking redeem myself… The chilling words of the witch, now returned to me. ‘If ever this were to happen… run.’

She fucking knew… My heart was racing faster than a fucking racehorse and my head was spinning. Kiara was in more danger than ever before… and now I had a fucking pup to deal with. I was about to be a father… And I was not ready for this. We weren’t in the right fucking space as mates or frame of mind as people. More than that, she was only fucking eighteen… I did not want to burden her with shit like this. I fucking messed up big time… I knew the risks of things being different for me than regular Alphas were high... But I had still let myself get caught up that day… I sat on the edge of the bed, my head spinning.

Fuck.

What the hell do I do?

Another thing the witch had said came to my mind and I looked at the selenite pendant. She said it would conceal… Did she by any chance actually want to help? Picking it up, I looked at the sleeping Kiara and slowly tied the pendant around her neck. She whimpered in her sleep, rubbing her cheek against my hand.

She could be so fucking cute… I moved back after the pendant was in place and closed my eyes. Listening.

Well fuck… I couldn't hear the heartbeat. I removed the necklace quickly, and once again I could hear the tiny heartbeat.

I’d have to ask Kiara to keep it on tomorrow. It seems like that irritating spell-spewing old bag was good for something. Selenite wasn’t something used for dark magic anyway…. And Kiara would have known if it had dark magic. Feeling a little more assured, I placed it down.

And the fucking million-dollar question hit me. How do I tell her she’s pregnant? Do I even tell her? What the fuck do I do?

So many questions, but I had no answers as I looked down at the fucking goddess who was sleeping so peacefully.

"I'm so fucking sorry…" I said quietly, stroking her silky locks off her face.

Her eyelids fluttered open, as she looked at me sleepily.

"Can’t sleep?" She mumbled drowsily as she scooted over, tapping the bed next to her, her head dropping as sleep threatened to overtake her. I didn’t reply as she patted the place next to her again. "Get in."

I hesitated, but after that revelation, I think I could definitely control myself. I climbed under the sheets and she smiled sleepily before she snuggled completely into my chest, making my heart go fucking crazy. I slowly wrapped my arms around her, maybe even hesitantly. I never liked a woman in my bed. Ever. But holding her, felt so perfect… so right... Her breathing became deeper as she relaxed once more.

"I love you." She murmured in her sleep, making me freeze.

A thousand emotions coursed through me as I looked at the woman I had broken, a woman who was still willing to give me a chance… Who fucking loved me as much as I loved her...Yet neither of us were able to tell the other. Not openly, not properly, not yet…

Would I ever get the chance to make things right? Or would this revelation further the distance between us?

I had destroyed something between us before it even had a chance to be whole… and now throw a fucking pup in the middle. Things just went from bad to fucking messy. I would have to tell her sooner or later, or she’ll pick up on it herself… Unlike regular werewolves who would be able to pick up a pup’s heartbeat after 6-8 weeks, I was able to pick it up a lot earlier.

I kissed the top of her head slowly, closing my eyes. I’d deal with that shit when the time comes... But right now I just need to sleep on it… I held her tightly, trying not to focus on the way she placed her knee between my legs. She sure loved to fucking snuggle.

I looked down at her, sighing deeply. Wishing I hadn't refused her that night… Why couldn't I have just ignored my fucking head? I won’t hurt her, I couldn't... Just the thought of it makes me sick. I had to believe in myself. I would die before hurting her.

Resting my head on top of hers, I closed my eyes. I swear she’ll fucking blow tomorrow morning when she sees us like this… but too fucking bad. She asked for it, although I have to admit she was half asleep. Oh well, who cares?

With those last thoughts I smiled slightly, holding her tight and thinking of how things could have been if I had accepted her, of maybe how things could still be…

90. His Turmoil

KIARA

I awoke feeling something poking my stomach. Apart from that, I felt so relaxed. Why did I feel so snug? I opened my eyes slowly, my heart racing when I looked at the partially tattooed chest in front of me. My breath hitched, my stomach erupted in butterflies as his familiar scent wrapped around me.

Oh, Goddess…

How did we end up in bed together? I tensed, knowing exactly what was poking me. The realisation sent a rush of pleasure through me and my entire body heated up. trying my best not to adjust my position. I didn’t want to wake him up.

I knew I wanted him. The mate bond, my own turmoiled emotions, and my wolf's urges were threatening to drown me.

"Hey…" Alejandro’s thick sexy voice came. "What’s up?"

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