Page 123 of Her Cold-Hearted Alpha: Part 1

I roamed the shelves, picking up one of the large gallons of wolfsbane that were used to fill small vials and uncapping it, I knocked the disgusting liquid down in one breath. My entire insides were set ablaze; the burning agony consumed me.

I just stood there, my chest still hurt. It wasn’t enough. I pushed the bottles aside, not caring as they shattered on the ground, looking for the strongest poison we had concocted for the Manangal and Wendigos.

One… four… Seven vials later, I couldn't breathe at all. My head was screaming with agonising torment. The taste of blood now filled my mouth as I coughed up blood. Why wasn’t the pain going away?

No matter what I did… All I could see was Kiara in bed.

I fell to my knees, clutching my head. It was my fucking fault… I had pushed her into that.

I dropped against the wall as blood trickled from my ear. I grabbed a few syringes that lay on the closest shelf, I didn’t bother checking what they were as I injected myself with them. My body was screaming for relief.

Maybe I overdid it a little in pushing her away… I clutched my head, resting my elbows on my knees. I should be proud though, right? I wanted her to move on and be happy… And she seemed to be having enough fun.

"Congratulations Alejandro. Mission accomplished." I told the empty room, my voice hoarse from the burning poisons I had consumed.

But it still killed me, so fucking much… Through the thick haze of pain and regret, what I felt for her shone through like the warm beacon of life itself...

She was a woman I could never have. One that I was far too fucked up to ever deserve... Yet I still loved her. Yeah, l said it… Love. Something I never knew I’d ever be able to feel again, but there was no other word I could use to explain how I felt.

Because of that love, I’d take all this pain every fucking day if it meant she was safe and happy away from a toxic fucker like me.

59. No Awkwardness

KIARA

I awoke to a shriek. "Uncle! Uncle, you can’t come in! Kiara isn't dressed!"

Raven?

I jolted up, groaning at the pounding in my head.

"Goddess… Why are you screaming?" I groaned.

"Fine, but I want to speak to her the moment she's dressed." Dad growled at Raven before the door slammed shut. Raven locked it and glared at me.

"Kiara!" She hissed.

"What?" I moaned.

"I thought you two were, you know… done." She whispered. "He’s getting married babe."

I frowned, now looking down at myself then at the room before me. Last night rushed back and I felt my cheeks burn. Oh fuck, I had practically forced Rayhan into sex. Kill me now.

I dropped back onto the pillow and pulled my bedsheet to my chest. Raven slapped my arm hard.

"Kia! I'm serious!" She snapped.

"It wasn’t him." I said softly.

I wish it had been… But I had made my decision, I needed to move on from him and focus on my mate. He was out there.

"Wow…" Raven said, then smirked. "Sooo who was the lucky guy?"

"Let’s not…" I said blushing, remembering last night.

Oh goddess, this was going to be so humiliating…

"Kia!" Raven huffed.

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