Page 189 of Knot Their Omega

I fucked all that up.

All because I couldn’t picture the idea of her saving the pack I desperately wanted to save. The pack I wished would prosper because of all the hard work I did.

I didn’t want her to steal my glory… yet look at my end.

“Th-The patch thing. They ripped it off. It’s gone,” I emphasize. “I-I don’t know how to stop her Heat. She’s burning up like crazy and is drenched. She’s going to get sick. I’m tryingto stall. Told the fuckers to give me fifteen minutes, but fuck, there’s no way out of this joint. I-I-I…”

Tears spill down my cheeks as I realize how fucking doomed I am. Even if I resist, I won’t fucking last long at all. Not in the state I’m in.

“If I wasn’t sick…” I sob and can’t stop the whimpers. “If-If I was strong like you or Icarus… I could have carried her out or fought these fuckers. If-If I was smart like Kenji, I could have figured out a hiding spot or a way out of this place. Heck… if I was talented and skilled like Kai… I could have just blown these fuckers out one by one. B-But… I’m not good at any of that shit. I’m only good at being a coward,” I cry.

“N-Nate…” I’ve never heard Nathaníel’s voice so deep and low, but it only makes me feel more dreadful at the reality at hand.

“I’m sorry. I’m so fucking sorry… I-I… I’ve been a shitty brother ever since Suzy. I didn’t know how to cope when she died. I knew I was the culprit in her demise, but I didn’t want to accept it. I didn’t want to believe I could stoop so low for money but… to repeat this shit to Astraea. I… I never wanted this for her,” I sob.

“I was jealous of her. How she’s able to walk into your lives and just fix everything. She’s pretty and fucking confident. Her talent oozes out of her, and I could see that. I knew she was going to be the Omega that changed you guys’ lives, and fuck! I was just mad and jealous that she’d be able to do that while I wanted to fix this shit for years. To fix what I destroyed.”

I hiccup and try to calm down, but there’s no point.

“They said I won’t make it to the fourth round of chemo,” I quietly whisper, repeating the words I overheard the nurse say in pure happiness. They were shit-talking about me, thinking I was asleep when I was wide awake, listening to it all. “Just my luck, right? Two months to live despite doing treatment thatmakes me so weak and brittle. I guess it’s the perfect karma for someone like me. I deserve this nonsense.”

“Nate. We’ll figure it out. We have your location. We’re almost there.”

“You won’t make it on time,” I whisper. “It’s only ten minutes. The moment they see you’re coming, they’ll hurt her. Fuck, they’ll kill her.”

“They won’t?—”

“You know how many Omegas have died from these fuckers? You know how many of them I’ve had to help bury in the big-ass grave on the outskirts of town. You think all those missing Omega posters and shit were some fake propaganda to act as if there wasn’t a real crisis going on?”

My words silence any rebuke, allowing me to breathe loudly before I sigh.

“The cemetery near Oakwood residence. That’s where they all are. There’s no time for me to say all the names. Heck, I can’t even remember half of them, but the Rosedale pack and their alliance packs are involved. It’s a whole organization,” I confess. “I couldn’t say anything because they blackmailed me. The same reason why I didn’t want you guys to get an Omega… because any Omega I got close to, they would bring to that place and kill.”

I can feel the heavy atmosphere through the phone, but there’s a sense of relief knowing I can say my truth.

“I never meant to get involved in this. It just… happened because I wanted enough money to do that audition. To become a star. It led me down this haunting hole, and I used drugs and alcohol to ignore the nightmares chasing me every fucking night. The screams of those Omegas as they just died after being raped and abused. I couldn’t say shit because I knew they would drag me down, too, and then my career would be ruined. They threatened to destroy the whole band. I couldn’t let you guys goto jail and shit for what I participated in. For what my selfishness caused.”

I take a few deep breaths, sniffing back and trying to calm myself down.

“I told Nathaníel to get away from here… threatened you to go… so that if any shit happened, they wouldn’t throw it on you. We… we look identical, and people didn’t know I had a twin brother. I didn’t want those fuckers knowing about you. Pulling you into this shit and using it against you!” I confess.

“You were so smart and successful. You were talented in so many areas, I knew you’d make something great for yourself, but if they plagued you with my wrongs… you wouldn’t be able to escape it. Heck, you’d assume you’re protecting me and let them throw you in jail for life if it meant I still had a chance to be a rockstar. I couldn’t fucking live with that. I could barely live with Suzy’s death. How the fuck could I move on, knowing my older brother was rotting in jail because of me?”

That was the real truth I never had the balls to admit.

“So… you can use this call to say the truth. That all of you guys are innocent, and if these fuckers try to take down Blooming Salvation, they’re all lying bastards who are responsible for the deaths of over 100 Omegas,” I declare firmly, hoping they’re recording my every word so they can give it to whoever they need to that will deliver the justice those Omegas deserve.

Maybe now they won’t haunt me.

“We’ll figure it out, Nate,” Nathaníel growls.

I know he’s mad. I expect him to be furious with me, but he hasn’t hung up the phone yet, which means I have a shot at redemption in his eyes.

That’s why, no matter what, I knew my brother would always help me when I needed him the most.

“I know I’ve been an ass. I know… I’ve been the most horrible person ever… but… don’t think I didn’t love you. Admire you. Fucking wished to be you, even though we look the exact fucking same. I wish I could communicate like you. That I didn’t have so much anger and resentment when I was the culprit of it all. I just wish I could admit how much I missed our brotherly bond. How much I missed my best friends! How much I wanted to be loved and adored. Not just by fans but by an Omega who actually yearned to know me. The real me. Not just this fake shit.”

I mean every word as I rise up. I know the time is almost up, and I have to face the challenge ahead. I just want to make sure I project my words properly.

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