Page 17 of Loving Jamie

I lean into his side and tell him, “I’m ok, I’m kind of excited to do this list now.”

“Oh really? You seemed pessimistic about it before.”

I shrug my shoulder and say, “Well yeah, I guess I was, but it makes sense now I think about it. With there being three of us in this relationship there are going to be things that we disagree on and all of our kinks aren't going to line up, so at least if we are all aware of them then things are less likely to go wrong. Do you get what I mean?”

William’s deep voice makes me jump when he says, “I know exactly what you mean baby, if everybody is on the same page then things should be easier to manage.”

William hands me and Justin a booklet of paper and a pen and says, “Ok, this is the list I use at the club. It shouldn’t take you too long to fill out.”

I move positions so my back is leaning against the arm of the sofa and my feet are curled under my legs. The room is silent as we all fill in the booklet.

I read through the checklist filling in the things I am interested in and the things I may one day want to explore, and the things that are my hard limits. 15 minutes later, I'm checking everything I have selected is correct, and I have added a few notes of my own, including safe words and punishments that I will never be comfortable with along with my signature

Personal notes.

Under no circumstances will I be blindfolded during punishments; I do not want to be seriously hurt during my punishments and I do not want to be ignored.

I am ok with marks being left on my body during sex and or punishments, but no breaking of the skin and no permanent damage or scars.

I will be using the traffic light system for my safe words: green means good, yellow means take a break and check in, and red means an instant stop.

Name and Signature

Jamie Black -J. Black

I place my paperwork on the table and wait for the guys to be finished. It doesn’t take long before they both are done. William grabs our information and reads through them and then passes them to Justin and I.

I move positions so I can cosy up again on Justin’s side. He lifts his arm, allowing me to get as close as possible. His fingers stroke through my hair as I read.

“Ok, it looks like our limits match up pretty well. Jamie, can you tell us what you are hoping to get from Justin and I.” William says.

I take a few moments to gather my thoughts before I answer. “I have wanted a Daddy since I discovered kink. I’m not interested in age play or ABDL. I just want my partner to take care of my emotional needs and help me to become the best version of myself. I want you guys to set me some rules as well as a schedule to follow. I have been living on my own for years now and I know how to look after myself but I have to admit I can be lazy when it comes to house chores and things like that.”

Justin says, “Well, we can definitely do something like that for you. We want you to be healthy as well as happy. When I look at the activities that you one day want to explore, I see that you have put whips, I know you told me that was something you loved but your ex took that away from you, so that is something that we will slowly ease you back into when you trust us more.”

William says, “I agree that if you used to enjoy it, I think that we can one day turn it back into a positive experience. I know you said this morning that when it comes to punishments, you don’t want to be ignored, so we will 100 percent accommodate that. At some point, Justin and I will write up a set of rules for you. Is there anything in particular that you want to improve on?”

I think for a moment before I say, “My main thing is sleep. I work from home, so sometimes the time gets away from me as I don’t have a set time I have to sign in or off.”

William says, “I never even asked what you both do for work. What is it you do?” He asks me.

“When Damian and I broke up, I wanted to make a safe space for people to explore their kinks, so I made my own website where people can upload content either doing live streams or uploading videos to their profiles. People can write blogs as well as ask questions. That was nearly five years ago. It's gotten pretty popular over the years and I have staff who work for me, but I'm the only person who verifies new members, so it’s a lot of work.” I answer.

“What’s the website called?” William asks.

“Voyeurism Fans.”

William’s head tilts to the side as he thinks about something. After a moment he says, “Oh I recognise that name.”

I don’t know if Nate told him that’s where he met Jude but I'm not going to say anything because of data protection plus if Justin isn't aware his brother was working for me, I don’t want to throw Jude under the bus.

I want to change the subject, so I turn to Justin and say, “A few weeks ago, you told me you wanted to change jobs. Do you know what you want to do?”

Justin shrugs his shoulders and says, “Well I used to work night shifts for a security company in Manchester because I couldn’t leave my mum alone during the day when Jude was working, but now that isn't an issue anymore, I don’t know what I want to do next.”

William asks, “Is there anything in particular that you want to do?”

Justin shakes his head and says, “Not really. I mean, I only took that job for the money so I could pay for the bills at my mum's house because any money she had was being used for her drinking habits.”

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