Page 46 of Loving Jamie

“I was so sure that after things with my mum were dealt with, I would just move back home, but I love living with Nate. I’ve only been back to the family home a couple of times and every time I’m there I’m counting down the minutes before I get to leave. How is Justin? Is he ok staying there?”

I hadn’t even thought about how it could be affecting Justin living in that house alone. I mean we all stay at each other’s places sometimes but I didn’t realise it might be triggering for Justin to be in that house. “Uh, I’m not sure. I haven’t asked him, but I’ll be sure to talk to him about it.”

It doesn’t take long for our fingernails to be done and then we have our toes painted. After we’re finished, we make our way over to the clothes storeLittle Sinners.

I brought Jude here months ago to buy him an outfit for the night he met Nate.

The little bell above the door chimes when we enter the shop. I’ve been here so many times that all the staff know who I am. I offer a friendly smile to the lady behind the counter before I clasp my arm to Jude’s and drag him towards the back of the shop.

I flick through the rails of leather shorts and trousers, but nothing catches my attention. Turning to Jude I say, “I think I want something different tonight.”

“What do you mean?”

My past insecurities try to take over my brain but I shut them the fuck down.

“The guys know I like pretty underwear, but they haven’t seen me in more feminine clothes before.”

I turn around and see a clothed mannequin. Dressed in a black pleated skirt, with an asymmetrical hem and a chunky silver buckle at the thigh. It's edgy and sexy. The mannequin is also wearing a black faux leather corset, with five little silver buckle clasps at the front, obviously I don’t have the breasts to fill out the corset but if I get it in a smaller size, it should be tight enough on my flat chest.

I finger the material, feeling the buttery leather under my fingertips. “What do you think about this?” I ask Jude. He knows that I like feminine things but it’s very rare he sees me decked out head to toe in feminine clothes.

Jude steps closer to me and takes in all the details of the outfit, analysing the buckles. He taps a red painted fingernail against his claps and hums, “You know what I think?”

I slowly nod my head, hoping to god that he doesn’t tell me it's ridiculous of me to want to buy something like this.

He smirks. “It’s missing a pair of dark purple fishnets and some badass high heels.”

My shoulders relax and I throw my arms around him. I’m so grateful to have an amazing best friend. “Oh Jude. You’re right it is missing accessories and shoes! What would I do without you?”

Jude giggles and squeezes me tighter. When he pulls back, he says, “You don’t need to have any doubts about stuff like this, Jamie. You’re beautiful no matter what you’re wearing. Honestly you could wear a bin bag full of holes and you’ll still be the hottest person in any room.”

My eyes sting, but I refuse to be a babbling mess in the middle of a kink shop.

I clear my throat a few times and say, “I appreciate that, thank you Jude. I know I like to act like I don’t care what people think about me but I couldn’t handle it if my Daddies were to laugh at something I really enjoyed doing.”

Jude’s honey-coloured eyes snap to mine. His face flushes red at hearing me call his brother and kinda brother-in-law Daddies, but he still smiles at me. “I don’t think I’ll ever get used to the idea of you calling my big brother your Daddy, but honestly don’t worry about them laughing at you. They love you and they’ll continue to love you no matter how you like to dress your body.”

I pull him back into my arms for a few more seconds. “I love you.”

“Love you too, Jamie.

Chapter 26 –

Justin

After spending a couple of hours at the burger place with William and putting our plan together for tonight, I’m at home; alone for once, relaxing before I have to start getting ready for tonight.

I received a text in the group chat earlier from Jamie saying,Going to get ready for tonight with Jude. I’ll get a ride to the club with him and Nate. I’m excited to see you both later XX

Leaving me with nothing to do until I need to get ready later on, I sit on the sofa and let the television run in the background while I think about what we’re going to do tonight.

William mentioned earlier that there’s a performance on tonight, he said it was another throuple like us, except its two boys and one Daddy. And I just know Jamie is going to love it. Our goal for tonight is to get Jamie to relax and forget about the Damian situation even if it’s just for an hour.

William told me,Remember when we were all filling in our limits and expectations forms a few weeks ago? Jamie said that he one day wants to be comfortable with being whipped.

I know that Jamie is nowhere near ready to play like that again, considering we have barely touched the surface on being kinky together. So, William suggested that we rent a room in the club, after we watch the performance. We can have a scene focused on Jamie's pleasure, show him how much we love him and how much we want to please him and then for our next few scenes we can slowly introduce some pain, but only when Jamie is feeling comfortable enough.

Causing pain isn’t really my kink, I mean I love the idea of spanking Jamie’s plump ass, but the thought of bringing him to tears makes me feel nauseous, and I explained that to William.

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