Page 13 of Loving Jamie

I take a deep breath and say, “It wasn’t anything physical at first. He would just say some nasty things and call me stupid. So, I would practise these positions for hours at a time when I was at home because I didn’t want to disappoint him. When I finally managed to hold the position for long enough, he was so happy and proud of me.”

Justin clears his throat and says, “I’m sorry to interrupt baby, but before things got physical in your ‘training’, did you discuss your goals and desires as well as your limits?”

I shake my head no.

William asks, “Did you have a safe word in place?”

I shake my head no.

William lets go of my hand and stands up. He walks out of the living room and paces around the kitchen. He looks mad, like really fucking mad. His hands are gripping the back of his neck as he mumbles to himself.

I look at Justin and see he’s watching me. “Are you ok?” He asks.

I shrug my shoulders, because physically, I’m fine but knowing that William is angry is making me sad. I know his anger isn't directed towards me, but I don’t deal well with being around angry people.

Justin pulls my hands towards him and I climb on top of his lap, wrapping my arms around his neck and placing my chin on his shoulders so I can watch William pace the room.

Justin strokes his hands up and down my back. I relax under his gentle caress and close my eyes.

Justin whispering in my ear, startles me. “He’s not angry at you, baby, but when you hear that someone in our lifestyle is abusing Subs, it hits hard. I think that because he has his own club, it's really making him mad.”

I lean back and press my lips to Justin’s. It’s a sweet and gentle kiss.

I climb off his lap and slowly walk into the kitchen, where William is leaning over the sink with his eyes screwed tightly shut.

Even though I want to touch him, I don’t. I don’t want to make him jump by mistake. I softly clear my throat and say, “Daddy?”

His head quickly turns to me and his eyes shoot open. He doesn’t say anything, but that’s ok.

I slowly creep closer to him and duck underneath his arm. His hands are tightly holding onto the side of the sink.

He is a lot taller than my short frame but with him being lent over, our faces are at the same height. I wrap my arms around his neck and whisper in his ear, “Come back to us, Daddy, I need you.”

He lets go of the sink and places his arms around my waist. He stands to his full height and my legs automatically wrap around him.

I'm clinging to him like a human koala bear, but I kind of like being carried around by him. He walks us over to where Justin is sitting on the sofa and sits down next to him.

I place a hand on Justin’s thigh and put the other one on William’s stomach. I like touching both of them.

Justin shuffles around so he can put his arm around William, his fingers stroking the hair at the back of his neck.

William takes a few deep breaths and says, “I'm sorry angel, just listening to the story about your ex treating you that way got me super pissed off. I promise I’m not angry at you. I know you weren’t done with telling us and I know it gets a lot worse, but knowing that he never discussed safety and set boundaries makes me so fucking mad. It’s people like him who give this lifestyle a bad reputation.”

I knew they would be upset, and he’s right, my story does get a lot worse. “I think I’m done with talking about him for tonight. I know you aren't mad at me but I want to spend time with my Daddies if that’s ok?”

Justin’s hand moving along my leg makes me look over at him. He smiles at me and says, “Of course, baby, whatever you want. Just know that we are here whenever you want to talk, ok?”

I nod my head and lean over to kiss him. When our lips touch, I feel my body relax instantly. His tongue pushes past my lips and I let out a loud groan. I feel Justin smile against my mouth.

When I pull back and look at William, I see that he’s been watching us. I lean towards his face and drag my nose against his and whisper, “Please kiss me, Daddy.”

His groan rumbles from his chest as he wraps a hand around the back of my neck and slams his lips against mine, his teeth nip at my lips and his tongue thrusts into my mouth, I tighten my legs against his thighs and whimper into his mouth. God, the way he kisses is so fucking dirty. I can only hope when we have sex, he fucks me with the same passion.

I pull away when I’m running out of oxygen. I'm panting loudly to try and catch my breath.

William turns his head and pulls Justin’s face to him, their lips crashing together with such aggression it’s like watching two people fight to be on top, which I guess is kind of true.

William turns his head to deepen the kiss and then he tugs at Justin’s hair. Justin groans loudly and relaxes into the kiss, which is interesting. He isn't quite submitting to William, but he is letting him control the kiss.

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