Page 97 of Breathing Without You

“Be mine, Emerald, please?” He squeezes me tighter, not hurting me, making me feel loved.

“I’m always yours, Creedence. But what do you mean?” I chuckle against his firm chest as my head rests against it, feeling his heart drum underneath me and hearing it in my right ear.

“Be my girlfriend again, be my girl. Please. I need you to be mine.” He looks down at me, placing his hand under my chin lifting my head to look up at him. I stare into his honey brown eyes, brown messy hair, probably from sleep and stress. His beard is a little longer than the last time I saw him, but it’s a good look on him. In fact, I think it’s my favorite look on Creedence.

I feel something vibrate against my leg and realize Creedence’s phone is going off the same time he sits up to reach into his pocket and grab it.

“Hey, man, what’s up?” he answers his phone.

“Ohh yeah, that’ll be perfect.” He smiles.

“Fuck yeah. Thanks man, tell her thanks too and everyone else. We appreciate you.” His smile grows.

“Yeah, see you soon, brother man.” He hangs up.

“Carsten and Winter are coming up; they're bringing breakfast from Lisa’s Diner. So now you’ll have your favorite donuts and your favorite breakfast.” He smiles down at me and it’s so hard for me to not melt every time his eyes land on any part of my body.

“Em, we gotta talk about last night.” My stomach drops a little, I don’t really want to talk about last night, but I know I’ll have too eventually.

“What about it?” I’m truly curious about what he wants to talk about.

“Babe, you drank a lot last night. Eddie, my friend at the table serving drinks, he told me how reckless you were. I was texting him last night after I left the party and came here. He told me how crazy you were with drinking and how careless you were with accepting drinks from people.” He sighs, taking a deep breath.

“Fuck, Creed. I’m not usually so careless.” It’s true. “Usually, I’m very careful when I go to parties and about who I accept drinks from. I’ve just, you know… I was crazier tonight because of how bad the last couple of weeks were.” I let out a breath. “It doesn’t make it okay, I could’ve prevented the whole thing if I weren’t so reckless, I know,” I tell him. And then I realize something.

“How come the police didn’t get involved?” I thought they would’ve wanted to talk to me about what happened at the party and whatever else.

“I took care of them. I told them you’d talk to them when you came home, that right now you weren’t able to talk and might not be mentally ready yet after everything that happened that you might need a few days. So, they talked to Dr. Franks who agreed, and they said they’d call you to set up a time and I gave them your cell number.”

“Thank you, Creedence.” I smile at him. “I truly appreciate you; we weren’t even together, and you were still finding ways to take care of me.”

“Babe, I’ll take care of you for as long as you allow me to take care of you.” He leans down and kisses me gently before pulling away.

“Fuck, I’m so sorry I wasn’t there last night, Emerald. I’m so fucking sorry I wasn’t there to stop you from taking that drink, from preventing the whole thing. For breaking your heart and even causing this whole issue.” He gives me a sad smile. “If I were there that wouldn’t have happened to you.” There it is, I knew he was going to feel that way and say that. But he has no reason to even feel this way, we weren’t together when it happened and it’s not like he knew it was going to happen.

“Creedence, you still came to my rescue, even if it wasn’t during, you still saved me afterward. By being here for me and not leaving me alone.” I smile up at him. “And you’re here forme now, Creedence and that’s enough for me.” He’s always been enough for me.

“I love you, Sugar.” He leans down cupping my chin again with one hand and kisses me softly.

“I love you so much you handsome, handsome man.” I kiss him and he pulls away quickly like something is wrong.

“Emerald, I’m so sorry for how I reacted when you gave me the helmet, I didn’t even see the engraving on it, I just saw the helmet and I panicked,” he tells me, closing his eyes in sadness.

“Carsten pointed it out, and I lost it. It means so fucking much to me that you did that.” He opens his eyes as tears start to fill them.

“It’s okay, I’m hurt, I’m not gonna lie but I can forgive you and move past it. I understand why you reacted the way you did but I’m more hurt by the fact that I felt like you threw me away, like you threw us away.” I sigh as tears start to fill my eyes again from feeling the heartache of our breakup all over again.

“You broke me, I’ve never felt so empty or alone in my life.” I start crying a little harder as he pulls me onto his lap again. I rest my head against his chest and cry.

“I felt the same way and I’m the asshole who fucking did this to us, I’m so sorry, Sugar.” He puts his fingers on my chin, lifting my face to look up at him, and his lips crash down on mine as I open my mouth inviting him in, he starts to explore my mouth, making long strokes with his tongue, devouring it like it’s been ages since he’s tasted me. I pull away from the kiss.

“It’s okay, Credence,” I say before bringing my lips back to his. Forgetting that we’re in my hospital room. It’s okay, the nurses just checked on me. They think I’m resting and said they’d be back in two hours. So, no one should be coming in before Carsten and Winter get here.

I slowly turn my body, throwing my left leg over his, straddling his body, feeling his hard length under my alreadywet pussy, I don’t know how my body is turned on in a moment like this, but I can’t help it, it’s been so long since feeling him this close to me, my body craves to be touched by him, it craves to feel him inside me.

“I need you,” I tell him breathlessly. “Please.”

“Show me what you need, Sugar,” he groans, and I slide the hospital gown down, leaving myself completely naked, exposing my naked breasts, and hard nipples to the hungry look in his eyes.

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