Page 95 of Breathing Without You

“What the fuck…what the fuck do you fucking mean. Please tell me. Is she okay?” I’m losing my mind I feel like I’m about to have a mental fucking break down. I just need to hold her; I need to kiss her. Please let her be okay.

“She’s unconscious. But she’s okay,” he chokes out. “I’m sorry I couldn’t get the words out sooner. It was the scariest thing I’ve ever experienced. Man, we didn’t know what she drank or took, so they had to pump her stomach.” He’s wiping his tears that are falling as quickly as he’s talking. “She was solifeless. I was so fucking scared for her, for you. Fuck, her whole family. Goddammit, I need to know what the fuck happened,” Carsten shouts. He’s protective of Emerald like he would be of a sister.

“Wait, you said she took a drink from Brynn and Daisy?” The thought pisses me off. The fact that anyone could purposely hurt someone is so fucked up.

“Yeah, that’s what I was told, I don’t know how true it is,” Winter says to me as she opens the curtain to an unconscious Emerald lying in the hospital bed. IVs in her hand and arm. A couple hospital bracelets on both arms. She’s so fucking pale, I question if she’s even breathing. Shit I feel sick. But I try to hold it in. I can’t throw up not here.

“We’re lucky we got here when we did, Creed. If we would’ve been a few minutes later, they may not have been able to save her.” Winter starts rubbing Emerald’s cheek as she talks to me. I slowly walk over to her. Thoughts of my brother lying lifeless on the cement try to flash through my thoughts, but I push them aside. I need to focus on my sweet Sugar. I get next to her and Winter moves away. Standing at the end of the bed. Wiping her tears away as she looks down at Emerald. I sit next to her and grab her cold hand.

“Fuck, Em,” I choke. “Why isn’t she awake?” I turn to Winter and ask her or Carsten whoever wants to answer.

“They don’t know what she took yet. They said whatever it was could be the reason she hasn’t woken up fully yet. They’re waiting for the results of her blood work and as soon as they know they’ll tell us.” She gives me a sad smile.

“Sugar, I’m so fucking sorry, baby.” I lean down kissing her hand. “Please, please come back to me.” I have no idea what I’ll do if something happens to her. I can’t lose her too.

“Fuck, Creed.” Carsten places his hand on my shoulder crying next to me. Then my idea that I thought of before returnsand I look over at Emerald I lean down and kiss her. “I love you, Sugar,” I whisper to her. “I’ll be right back.” I stand up and look over at Carsten and Winter. “I’ll be right back guys, trust me.” And I don’t wait for an answer, I run out the door. Running through people that are walking through the halls, doctors that are staring at me like I lost my mind, with a look of confusion on their faces as I run from yelling nurses and other people who work here, I finally make it to the doors when I see security coming. What the fuck? Security because of me running in a hospital? Fuck this. I pick up speed. I used to play football, so I’m used to running. Our coach was a psycho about our speed. I make it to my car before the two overweight security guards get to me and speed out of the parking lot. Fuck the speed limit tonight I need to get to this party.

I get to the party and rush in through the door, I'm immediately greeted by Brynn and Daisy, who hold cigarettes in their hands like they were about to come out and smoke.

“Damn, you look fucking hot,” Daisy slurs a little trying to rub her finger against my chest but misses. I’m out of fucking breath from all that running and anger. I don’t have the energy to react to more than what I need to.

“What the fuck did you do to my girlfriend. Daisy?” I'm fucking fuming and it's taking everything in me not to fucking choke her.

“Word around town is she's not your girlfriend so why does it matter what I did?” She has the ugliest smile on her bitchy face. Fuck her. I push her up against the wall pushing my hand against her throat, fuck being nice. Fuck her and Brynn.

“Tell me what the fuck you did to her, what the fuck did you put in her drink? My friends are calling me freaking the fuck out cause she's not waking up then next thing I know they’rerushing her to the hospital. I can’t get into detail I’m too fucking pissed. I’ll do something I regret if I do. So save yourself and tell me before I fucking hurt you.” I’m seething with anger. She suddenly has a panicked look as all the color drains from her face.

“I roofied her drink, okay. That's all I did. I wanted her to pass out and for someone to see her and sleep with her so that way she'd be cheating on you and you guys would be done for good. That way maybe you’d want to get with me.” She smirks a little, looking away from me, tears in her eyes.

“What the fuck is your problem? You wanted someone to fucking rape her?” I’m fucking furious now. She's lucky she's a girl and I can't kick her fucking ass.

“Well, no, I didn't think about it that way, please don't be mad at me, Creed,” she whispers then sticks her bottom lip out in an ugly pout. She never was cute when she pouted. I don’t know what I ever saw in this nasty fucking girl or why I ever gave her the time of day. I should have ran when she showed interest in me, especially after what her friend Brynn did to Carsten last year when she tried to pretend she was pregnant to get him to leave Winter for her.

“Don't be fucking mad at you? You roofied my girlfriend and wanted someone to fucking rape her. I’m not mad…” She smiles like she’s relieved. “I'm fucking livid.” I slam her body into the wall a little while walking away. I don't care if I fucking hurt her, she's lucky I didn't do more.

“What the fuck did you give her Daisy?” I yell in her face not caring how shitty I’m being to a woman right now.

“The guy called it liquid ecstasy,” she shouts in a nervous voice squinting her eyes closed like I’m about to hit her or something.

“You fucking gave her GHB! What the fuck is your fucking problem. Dammit,” I shout and shove her against the wall one last time before running out of the house back to my truck.

Once I arrive back at the hospital, I park in the same made-up spot I parked in before and I run back inside, bypass the desk with the bitch behind it and run down the hall dodging everyone until I get back to Emerald’s room. “GHB,” I pant, out of breath from how fast and how far I just ran. “They gave her liquid ecstasy,” I breathe out.

“Knock. Knock.” In comes a man with what looks to be a tablet in his hand. “Good evening, I’m Dr. Franks, we're still waiting on the results from her bloodwork.”

“GHB,” I blurt out. “The girl at the party who did it told me. I went to the party and got it out of her.”

“Thank you for that information. Well that definitely explains why she overdosed. I was told she was drunk all day and then overdid it on the alcohol at the party. That mixed with gamma hydroxybutyrate, also known as GHB, mixed with that amount of alcohol mixed with however much GHB can cause someone to overdose. She should be awake sometime tonight, if not depending on how much was left in her system she could be out until morning. But she’ll have to stay for a day or two to be monitored.”

“When she comes home will she be back to normal? Will she be okay or?” I’m worried about her; I can’t help all the questions that come to mind.

Dr. Franks gives me a kind smile. “She may have suffered some memory loss. She may not remember the night of the party or why she’s in the hospital. Little things, nothing major like she will remember who you are and everyone else in her life. She’ll be okay, she'll just be groggy for a few days.” He turns awaytowards the door before turning back. “I’ll have her moved up to the third floor, that’s where she’ll be for the rest of her stay. I’ll be back to check on her before she’s moved though. I’ll let you guys visit.” He walks out the door not waiting for us to respond to what he had just said. I wish Emerald was awake so I could talk to her about how fucking scared I am right now that even though Dr. Franks said she’ll be okay it’s still hard to fully trust it. I can’t lose her. Ever. I need to tell her how much I love her, and how sorry I am.

“We’re gonna head out.” Carsten comes over to me. “That way you can spend time with her plus we gotta go get the twins from my mom’s.”

“We love you guys so much,” Winter says, as she comes in and gives me a big hug from her little body.

“Love you too, Winter. Em loves you too.” I squeeze her back.

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