Page 52 of Three to Fall

He rolled me over so I was facing him, his beautiful eyes focused solely on me. “Hey. It is real. You aren’t dreaming. You’re having a baby.” He grinned. “Not sure how I didn’t notice your tits are bigger.”

I stared down at them excitedly. “Seriously? Do you think so? I have no pregnancy symptoms. No morning sickness or tiredness.” I just wanted some sign to tell me the test hadn’t gotten my hopes up for no reason.

Hayden slid down the bed to bury his face in the plump swells of my breasts. “Trust me, I spend a lot of time every day memorizing each curve of your body. I can see the differences.”

I was sure he was pulling my leg. I was probably very early pregnant, and that was the most likely reason why I hadn’t noticed. In a few weeks I’d probably have my head over the toilet bowl every morning.

I grinned at the thought. I couldn’t wait.

Something inside me was so victorious. Healed by this tiny baby growing inside me. I’d spent five years feeling so incredibly broken and sad. Robbed of the chance to ever be a mother, first by men who took my child from me, and then by my own body.

I allowed myself a tiny bit of hope. A quick daydream of bringing this baby home to an extended family who loved it, and men who would fight tooth and nail to keep me and my children together.

Everything about the first time was so wrong. Wrong man. Wrong time. Wrong place.

And yet I wouldn’t be here now, with my beautiful daughter, three men who loved me, and a second child on the way if it hadn’t been for all the heartache.

Suddenly, I knew I wouldn’t change my past, even if I could.

How could I, when changing something back then would mean I wasn’t here right now?

My mind whirled with everything that needed to happen next. “We need to go to the doctor. Get scans done. Blood tests.”

Hayden nodded. “First thing Monday. But until then, while Hayley Jade is still at Rebel’s place…”

His dick slid between my legs and slowly up inside me.

I murmured a sigh of pleasure and hooked my leg over his, opening myself up and drawing him closer.

Thumps came from the door. “Quit fucking and get out here. Grayson’s here. Says we have to study for the GED.”

I groaned, Hayden buried inside me to the hilt and my pussy throbbing around him, not nearly satisfied. “Tell him I’ll be there in a minute.”

Hawk’s voice was practically a growl. “No minutes. I need you out here now because if I know what you’re doing in there, I’m going to come in and join you. We all know I’m lasting a whole lot longer than Hayden ‘limp dick’ Whitling. We don’t have time to fuck all day. The GED isn’t waiting for your libidos to be satisfied.”

Hayden flipped off the door, but his gaze and words were for me. “As much as I’d love to keep you in here, tied to my bed until the sun goes down, he’s right. With the baby coming, you’re both going to need to get as much studying done as you can. It’s going to be harder when he’s here and so fucking cute we just want to snuggle him all day.”

“Him?” I asked with a gentle smile. “Grayson seemed pretty convinced it was a girl last night.”

“Hayley Jade has been my girl since the day she was born. It needs to be a boy. I can’t imagine loving another little girl the same way.”

I kissed his lips softly. “You would.”

“Mmmm. But I do think it’s a boy. Do you have a preference?”

I shook my head quickly.

Except in my heart, I knew that was a lie.

There was a tiny part of me that was terrified of having a boy for the sole reason that if Josiah ever found out, it would give him all the more reason to come after me.

If this baby was a boy, he could try claiming it as his. His followers wouldn’t ask for a paternity test. All they would care about was Josiah’s first wife had finally born his heir.

I didn’t voice my fears. Didn’t want to burden any of the guys with the dangerous thoughts rattling around inside my brain.

It was trauma talking. Fear. Anxiety.

I pressed my hand to my belly harder.

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