Page 174 of Psycho Alphas: Part One

I screamed, hurting everywhere.

It was heat that was all wrong, frigid and agonising, slamming into me at once. I felt as though I was an orb of consciousness trapped in a cell, a thousand miles from the nearest spark of warmth.

I shivered, a low, agonised moan slipping from chattering teeth.

I hated heats right from that first one I’d tried to hide. They always hurt, no matter what I did, always left me feeling empty. But this one, it was worse.

Bunny…?

I shivered so hard my bones rattled in their casings.

Where are you?

You were n-never supposed to leave me.

But hehadleft me.

Reality flickered again, this time stealing my mind.

Ace had bitten me and left me alone.

Thick, wet tears tumbled down my cheeks again. My chest was heaving, eyes aching, body frail from hours of crying as another wave of this sickness washed over me. Something had happened, I didn’t know what, but the guards were all gone.

It seemed like a sign.

Complete and total abandonment.

He was never coming back.

He’d left me for her, and the world was ending.

I was on the floor in the middle of his ruined room, clutching his shredded blankets to my chest as I sobbed, not knowing where the tears were coming from anymore.

A choked, shattered wail ripped from my lungs as I tugged the knife against the fabric like I had a thousand times. Down feathers floated in the air as I screamed, as if that might make this pain any less.

I could feel him in the bond, still.

The other half of my heart.

He was in a rut.

I tried to stay away from this new bond, but it was hard not to know that, at least. And if he was in a rut, he was with her…

“Your fault…” I whispered. “You stupid Omegawhore!Failed before you met him. He knew you would never be enough.” Another tear of the fabric. But then… “Then why did you bite me?” I wailed. This bond was the whole world. “Why did you bite me just to leave? Why didn’t you just leave me in that place with Dumb Dan and his stupid pack.”

It would have been better.

I’d never hurt like this before.

It wasn’t my fault I loved him so much—I didn’t know how to stop. From the moment I’d seen him, the world hadn’t been possible without him in it.

How was it fair?

How was it fair that I felt that way, and he could choose her?

The world split in two that day, cracked apart in a way I never thought it would again.

Not until I watched Knox’s teeth sink into the flesh of another.

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