Page 40 of The Very Naughty List

“Uh uh. No buts,” she interrupts before I can finish. “I know how much you were dreading going back to your hometown. So why not make the most of it and take advantage of this amazing new development? I think you should make a move.”

“Make a move? On which one?”

When I think about each of the triplets, my heart races and my clit starts throbbing like it’s begging for attention. I honestly don’t think I could make a choice between Nick, Reid, or Sebastian without still feeling like I want the other two as well.

“On all three of them, dummy!”

Lorelai says it like it’s obvious, and I swallow hard, my stomach dropping out like I’m on a roller coaster.

“You can’t be serious. All of them? Three men?”

“Why not? They all seem to be showing interest in you, and we both know that you’ve been into all three of those brothers for as long as I can remember. Give me one good reason why you shouldn’t take advantage of this once in a lifetime opportunity.”

“Well, for starters, these guys are Lucas’s best friends.”

“Yeah, yeah, we’ve already covered that. Come up with something else that you haven’t already used as an excuse.”

“Okay, well… it would be pretty scandalous if anyone in Chestnut Hill found out.”

“Who says they have to know? And who says it’s any of their damn business even if they do find out?”

She’s got a point there, although knowing how fast gossip spreads in a small town like this, I’m not sure it’d be as simple and straightforward as she’s making it sound.

“I get what you’re saying.” I chew my lip, nerves racing through me at the idea that I’m even semi-seriously contemplating this. “But the biggest thing is, what if the guys have no interest in sharing like that? I mean,assumingany of them were even interested in doing anything with me, I definitely don’t want to come between them. I don’t want to do anything to risk their bond as brothers, or to mess up anything between us.”

“I know.” Her voice softens a little with understanding. “It’s scary. I was sort of just kidding when I told you to make a move with all of them, but the more I think about it, the more I think you really should. This could be something fucking amazing, but you’ll never find out if you don’t try.”

“But what if?—”

“Look, I know that asshole ex of yours did a number on your self-esteem.” She sighs, and I can practically feel her anger at Dylan, even across all the miles that separate us. “And maybe you’re right and this is all just supposed to be fake dating. But what do you have to lose? Your brother doesn’t have to knowabout it. You’re literally staying in a house with the three hottest men you’ve ever known, and I honestly don’t think that they would be kissing you in the way that you’re describing to me if there weren’t some honest to god feelings evolving over there.”

I chew on my lower lip as I listen to my best friend speak, practically wearing a hole through it as my mind spins over her words.

On the one hand, I can barely stand how badly I want the triplets. I’ve always had massive crushes on all of them, and living in such close proximity is making that simmering attraction boil over. On the other hand, I know there’s a lot at stake. Besides, I’m not quite so sure that I’m ready to open up my heart to any guy again, not to mentionthreeof them.

I’ve all but given up on the idea of true love and happy endings. So the thought of taking a chance again with not just one, but possibly even three men, is a lot.

“I don’t know,” I whisper after a long beat. “I guess… I’ll sleep on it.”

“Good. I’m sure that will give you sweet dreams.” Lorelai laughs. “And speaking of sleep, we should both get some. I’m really glad you called though. Keep me in the loop, girl, and if anything else sizzling happens, you know where to find me!”

I laugh. Lorelai always has a way of making things feel less heavy and taking some of the weight off my brain. “Thanks.”

We say goodnight, and I snuggle down into the bed, pulling the blankets around my chin.

I’m hoping that I’ll fall asleep quickly now that I’ve decompressed a bit and talked things over with my bestie, but after twenty minutes of staring up at the ceiling with my thoughts still racing, I scrunch my face up in frustration.

“Dammit,” I mutter.So much for sleeping on it.

My entire body feels like it’s buzzing with adrenaline and lingering arousal, and I realize there’s a good chance I won’t sleep at all tonight unless I take the edge off.

Biting my lip, I kick the covers off and slowly slip a hand into my sleep shorts. If these thoughts are going to keep me up all night, I might as well do something about them.

I never had “spectacular” orgasms with Dylan. It was all just average. And most of the time, he wasn’t even able to get me to climax. I had to do that part myself, which at least means that I’m well versed in what it takes to get me over the edge.

Sebastian’s handsome features float through my mind as I trace slow circles against my clit with my finger. What would’ve happened if Nick and Reid hadn’t come upstairs while we were kissing in the dark?

I imagine Sebastian’s finger pushing into me as I work one into myself and bite my lower lip to keep from groaning. The last thing I need is to wake up any of the guys and accidentally alert them to what I’m doing in here.

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