Page 26 of Breaking Free

On the flip side, he aggravates the shit out of me. The same confidence I enjoy when I’m trapped in his bubble, turns into annoying cocky behavior outside of that bubble.

Everything in me is fighting to stay strong and not surrender to his will. Even being with him at Bobby’s Burgers was hard. If anybody was paying attention to us, they would’ve known, or at least suspected something was going on between us. That’s one of the main reasons why I don’t want to be around him. My wall comes down too easily and I’ll end up outing myself by accident.

I park in my driveway, and just as I’m about to call Jay back, my phone vibrates in my hand, and Renzo’s face pops up on the screen. Knowing I’m in for a long conversation, I plop down on the top step of my porch.

“Don’t start,” I say as soon as I accept the call.

He laughs. “So, Dom is the towel wrapped hottie from Grand Valley? And he’s here now and playing football with you? And, more importantly, you didn’t fucking tell me?”

I sigh. “It’s not gonna be a thing. There’s no need to know he transferred here.”

“Right, except that he’s fucking hot, and when you saw him earlier, your jaw dropped like you were ready to swallow his dick right at the table. Which I’m not one-hundred percent against seeing, if I’m being honest.”

I shake my head, a laugh escaping even though I was trying to keep it in. “I’m assuming Ronan isn’t around.”

“He’s in the other room,” he answers easily. “He agrees he’s hot, and we both agree that you’re gonna hook up with him again. You’d be stupid not to.”

I groan. “You’re supposed to be my friend and on my side.”

“I am, and I’m being a great friend by saying you need to get laid by the massive football player. You’d feel better, I promise. You have so much pent up...what’s the word I’m looking for?”

“Sexual energy?” Ronan chirps in the background.

“Sexual energy works,” Renzo says. “You haven’t had sex with a guy yet. You’re craving it. I know it.”

“Oh my God, I’m not talking about this with you.”

Renzo laughs again. “Anyway, why aren’t y’all doing anything?”

“For one, I’m in the closet.”

“And? So was Ronan. We had a blast hooking up behind people’s backs.”

I roll my eyes and push my sunglasses up on my head. “When I’m around him, my guard comes down, and I don’t want people figuring it out because I’m eye-fucking him. Plus, I don’t even know how to go about telling people. Everyone I know has always thought I was straight my whole life. Hell, I was hooking up with chicks this year. How will I explain my revelation?”

“Say that you hooked up withtheeLorenzo Hayes and realized how much you loved dick.” Only a second goes by before he exclaims, “Ow. Sorry, babe.”

“Ronan’s gonna kick your ass.”

“Kiss it, more like. Anyway, who cares what they think?”

“I don’t know how to tell my parents.”

“Your parents have always been pretty cool, and they like me and know I’m gay, so…”

“Yeah, but you’re not their son. It’s easy to pretend you tolerate something when it doesn’t involve your kid.”

“Have they ever talked about me when I wasn’t around? Judged my sexuality?”

“No,” I answer honestly.

“I know it’s scary, but you don’t want to miss out on opportunities because you’re scared.”

“What opportunities?”

“Uhh, to bang the hot football player? I thought I was clear.”

“Renzo,” I hear Ronan say in the background.

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