Page 68 of Psychological War

“Salem,” he hissed. “Shit, you’re squeezing me so god…damn…hard…” Everything that he was doing was hitting the right spots, and I was already headed towards my fourth orgasm.

“Give me one more,” he growled at me. “Fuck, give…me…one…more.” His thrusts became rushed and sloppy. “Mine.”

“Yes, yes, all yours!” I screamed, my fourth one skyrocketing out of me, a gush of fluid leaving my body. I once again had no idea what my body was doing, I had no control over anything. Zane barely gave me time to see things as he shoved himself into me again.

“You’re going to take my cum like a good girl, aren’t you?” he grunted. I couldn’t even speak as he brought his hands to my clit and began rubbing it in circles. I didn’t even have time to speak before Zane yanked me down, pushing his tongue into my mouth. Between him thrusting into me like a madman, the pressure he was putting on my clit with his hand, and now kissing me like he needed air, I lost myself.

“Fuck,” he hissed. His movement stilled as I felt the warmth of both of our final release. My body shook, and my arms suddenly felt numb. I dropped forward, my face resting in his neck. My eyes closed, as he slowly began playing with my hair. My body relaxed, and this calmness fell over me as the sleepiness took me over.

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The feeling of someone rubbing my back woke me from my deep sleep. I wasn’t ready to fully wake up just yet. I felt like I had barely slept at all.

“Five more minutes,” I mumbled sleepily into his warm chest.

“Come on, we gotta get you cleaned up.” Zane still continued to rub my back, making it a little too hard to get up. “Salem, come on, Kitten.” He kissed the top of my head before pulling away. I whined in protest at my personal pillow leaving me, until I looked over at the clock on my side table. Two a.m. Thank the heavens above, I could shower really quick and then get a few more hours of sleep.

Swinging my legs over the side, my muscles were all in protest. I felt like I had my ass kicked last night. Maybe a bath instead of a shower would work better to help my soreness. Slipping my hand into Zane’s, I followed him into the bathroom where he must have read my mind about a bath.

“Grab those lavender salts.” Zane pointed to the cabinet as he tested the water. I didn’t question as I grabbed the salts before handing them to him.

Watching as he poured a good amount into the water, he held his hand out. Helping me into the water, I sat down and sighed as the warm water helped soothe my sore muscles.

“Lean up, Kitten.” Zane brought my attention back to him. Leaning forward, he stepped in behind me. Wrapping an arm around my middle he pulled me against his chest.

“Will you come visit me?” I asked. I had been fighting with myself on not wanting to ask him. I didn’t want to beg him to stay, but I also didn’t want him to go. I was attached to him, even though I knew it was better not to be.

“What are you talking about?” He sounded annoyed that I even dared to ask something like that.

“I don’t know, sorry. I shouldn’t have asked. It was stupid of me.” I couldn’t help the worry in my voice.

“What makes you think I’m going anywhere?” He wrapped his arms tighter around my middle, his thumbs rubbing circles around on my ribs. “I don’t know if I gave you the impression I was leaving, but I’m good here,” he said as a matter of fact. I didn’t know if I wanted to smile or fight against him saying he was staying here. I hadn’t been truthful with him and now I was regretting not telling him the truth.

Instead of answering him I relaxed back and closed my eyes. Matching my breathing to his I ignored the guilt I felt for not telling him about Luca, and why it would be much better if he left. If they all just left.

27

Salem

Ithadbeentwoweeks since Zane told me he was staying here with me, even if his family went back to Russia. We hadn’t talked about it, but since that night things had shifted in everyone. Killian had begun acting differently, being quiet. Aziza stopped replying to my calls. Tobias and I still trained every morning with no one knowing but Mila. He was getting faster at breaking away from me. Mila had her training, and she was getting much better. She started feeling comfortable with Dimitri training her finally. Zane got back into training, and we spent a lot of time sparring with each other.

It was odd having someone else to spar with, but it was nice. Though I still had yet to put all my training to use with him. He had asked me multiple times to not hold back, but I couldn’t bring myself to actually hurt him.

I had yet to tell him about my family, or to tell him that I’ve known him for almost five years now. Every time I saw my bat sitting in the corner it was always there on the tip of my tongue to tell him the whole truth.

I just never got to the point where I could. It was beginning to weigh down on me that I kept my distance from everyone. Besides the three training sessions we had, I always stayed outside, usually with Pumpkin, taking him for long rides.

That’s how I found myself tonight. Mila and Dimitri wanted to go out. She had planned on telling him that she was pregnant. Killian and Zane decided they were going to check out some land Killian was thinking of purchasing.

I stayed to watch Tobias, which I had no problem doing. He was lying next to me on the couch after we watched Tarzan half a dozen times. Clicking the TV off when the movie finished playing I sat back and took a moment listening to nothing but silence.

Since meeting Zane I felt like I hadn’t had any silence in my life. I had always been preparing for Luca. But now here even with the small snores from Tobias, it was nice to not hear anything.

But with silence came the thoughts. How would Zane react if I told him the reasons I was killing those men? Would they understand why I had to do it?

Two more kills and I was done. It was just Dante and Luca now, and they would meet their end. I just couldn’t go all this way to turn around now. As much as I wished I could, I couldn’t. Nor would I.

I just hoped I was the same after, and then Zane would think I was worth it in the end. I just needed Aziza to find Dante and Luca again. That way I could finish this once and for all. Then I could get on with my life, and so could Aziza.

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