Page 10 of Reverse Perspective

“Fuck. Fuck. Oh fuck,” I whimper. When my orgasm breaks, I hold my breath and my body arches dramatically as it tears through me. It makes my body feel warm but everything turns blazing hot again when he doesn’t stop. He really doesn’t like being challenged. Combine that with his hatred for the guys and he’s determined to make me scream.

Alex sucks and bites my clit, making me come repeatedly until finally, I have no energy left to hold back my loud and ragged moans. I’m hyper-sensitive as it is, but the man knows how to suck. That’s about all he knows how to do though. He has an under average size dick, but I’m not going to judge him on something he can’t help. As long as we both get ours, I don’t care. For all I know he could be a wizard with his tiny dick. Who knows?

“You gonna let me keep going tonight,” he asks as he moves up and kisses me.

“As long as you have a condom, yes,” I say.

“Fuck, Sadie. You’re on birth control though,” he complains.

“That doesn’t mean I want to risk it, Alex. We’ve had this conversation,” I say. He is settled between my legs with his erection already out. I feel bad, but I’m not even about to get herpes because I was trying to people please and let someone raw dog me because he’s too irresponsible to bring a condom.

Alex doesn’t say anything as he gets off the bed and fixes his clothes. “What are you doing?” I ask.

“I’m leaving. What the fuck does it look like?” he snaps.

“Stop being a child and just go get condoms,” I say. He shakes his head at me and goes to the door. I pull the covers over me right as he opens it and turns back to me.

“You’re too fucking old to be a tease, Sadie. This isn’t high school anymore. Do you want to know why you’re alone? Thisis why. You’re fucking useless,” he says as if scolding a naughty child. He walks out and slams my door shut.

His words cause pain to stab through me because he’s right. I’m alone because I won’t let myself get close to anyone. Am I too uptight because I don’t trust him enough to take him without a condom? I roll to my side and pull the blanket up so I can better cocoon myself as sobs break out of me.

“Please go away,” I say with a broken voice when my door comes open.

“Not a chance, Little Demon,” Mason says softly as he scoops me up. He does so in a way where he keeps the blankets wrapped around me completely. I don’t have the energy to argue so I just let him comfort me. Mason sits on my bed with me in his lap as Dean and Lance sit beside him.

I can’t stop myself from crying and no matter how much I want to hide my feelings from them I don’t want to be alone. I’m so tired of being alone.

“What happened?” Mason asks as he makes me sit up and look at him. I shake my head and he sighs.

“We heard basically everything so why not just fill in the gaps for us?” Lance says.

“He was just mad that I told him he had to wear a condom if we had sex,” I say quietly.

“Really?” Dean says. “He acted like a child because you didn’t want to get syphilis from him?”

“Yeah,” I say timidly.

“Fuck him then,” Lance frowns.

“Well, I was trying but apparently he doesn’t plan well,” I say.

“That’s not…” Lance starts to say with stops and smiles when I laugh through my tears. “Good to see you still have a sense of humor, Sadie.”

“That’s all I have going for me,” I whisper, dropping my eyes to my hands.

“What is that supposed to mean?” Mason asks.

“It means he’s right. I’m alone because I won’t have sex with anyone,” I say bluntly. “Not even for lack of trying. I apparently just fucking suck at this.”

“Woah. Wait. Hold on,” Mason says. “You’re a virgin?”

“Yeah,” I say tearfully. “I always get broken up with or they ghost me. I don’t know what is so wrong with me that no one wants me.”

“Oh, Sadie,” Mason says as he hugs me. “I’m sorry.”

“Why are you sorry because I’m uptight?” I ask.

“You’re not uptight,” Dean says. “I feel like we can take a lot of blame for why you feel this way.”

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