Page 56 of Reverse Perspective

“I want to help you, Sadie,” Paul says as he opens the bottle. He spreads my lips and squirts some of the contents directly on my clit and I feel it run down and collect with the fluids coming out of me. “I want to get rid of your demons.”

“You are a demon,” I whisper. Leo laughs and puts my hands together, like I’m praying, before taking something that looks like a ribbon and tying my hands together.

“The female orgasm is meant to allow a man to rid her of her demons,” Paul says as he pushes his fingers into me. “Everytime she comes, another demon is released. And my sweet bunny… You have so many demons lurking in your body. I want to help you force them out.”

“Please don’t,” I whimper through my tears.

“Remember the first time you had an orgasm for me, Bunny?” he asks as he starts to rub my clit. Whatever this lube he put on me is, it’s making my genitals feel like one raw nerve. His touch instantly drags out a feeling that makes me nauseous. It’s a warm pressure that starts in my belly. It grows and grows untilhe gets what he wants. A moan slips out of me, followed by more tears. “Good girl, Sadie. You’ll thank me for this one day.”

Paul hooks his arms around my thighs before licking up my slit, letting his tongue slip between my lips to gingerly tease my clit. My entire body shudders when he starts to fuck me with his tongue. Leo forces my mouth open right as Paul drags his tongue across my clit. A loud and ragged moan fills the room just before Leo pushes his dick down my throat. Right away he starts to fuck my throat insanely hard and fast.

Paul pushes two fingers into me and starts to assault me with his hand as he starts to suck on my clit. I can’t stop the sobbing or the moaning, but it all sounds gargled around his dick in my mouth. He isn’t letting up for a second as he assaults me. I am desperately trying to keep my body from responding, but it won’t listen to me. It won’t stop inching toward that release that it’s begging me for but I am trying to deny it. When the disgusting orgasm floods out of me, he sucks on me harder, making my entire body shake. I nearly scream around the dick in my throat and the feeling won’t fade. I buck my hips involuntarily, my body giving into the steady stream of orgasms that his suctioning is forcefully feeding me. Leo pulls out of my mouth without finishing and covers my mouth. Paul doesn’t stop his torture as Leo talks on his phone. I can’t focus on his words but when I hear him mention Todd, I know he’s talking to one of the guys. He’s playing things off like he hasn’t betrayed them or me. Like he wasn’t just balls-deep in my throat, stealing his pleasure. When he finally uncovers my mouth, I can’t take it anymore.

“Stop, stop, stop. Please stop,” I groan. “Stop it. Please.” I can’t stop any of my reactions. My body is desperately searching for a release and it can’t find what it needs. My hips rock against his mouth as I continue to sob hysterically.

He finally unlatches from my clit but pushes three fingers inside of me. He comes up to meet my face as he rubs my clit.He is nose-to-nose with me. “One more, Bunny. You’re doing so good.”

“Please,” I cry. He’s edging me now and that’s more painful than forcing me to come.

“Say it, Bunny,” he smiles.

“Make it stop. Please make it stop,” I beg.

“Beg me, Sadie. Beg me and I’ll let you come. Beg me and I’ll make it stop.”

My entire body is on fire and it hurts. It hurts so badly. I don’t want to feel this anymore. I fucking hate this. “Please.”

“Say it,” he growls.

“Make me come. Please, just make it stop. It hurts. Please please make it stop.” I am so desperate to make it stop. I fucking hate myself for this, but I hate feeling I’m being stabbed by a thousand needles. He finally lets it break and I groan through gritted teeth.

He pulls away from me and I am panting. My skin is covered in sweat from how tense I was for so long. My body aches from so many orgasms. I never thought it was possible for an orgasm to be so painful.

If his goal was to break me, then he succeeded. I feel completely detached from my body; a zombie that is simply existing. My tears have stopped and my eyes settle on nothingness as he pulls me up and into his lap. I am hardly aware of him or really anything when he pulls me down on his chest and thrusts into me.

My mind easily wanders off to work. I find it interesting that my brain is suddenly pretending like none of this is happening. We know it is, my brain and I, but it’s doing its best to shield me from it. Nothing is processing and the little bit that does feels like it’s happening to someone else. I’m not the one getting raped. No. It’s someone else entirely, I just happen to be here. I feel no sadness or anger. There is no pain or forced pleasure. It’snot nothingness. Even when I feel Leo slowly push into my ass and they start to alternate thrusts, I stay silent.

I don’t make a single noise as they take from me. They are chipping away at my sanity and it’s as though they take a piece of me every time they push into my body without my permission. Soon they’re both grunting and groaning for what I think is the second or third time. I am then discarded on the bed like a used up toy.

I curl myself into the fetal position and bury my face. I still don’t cry or scream out in anger. I just lay here. Even though I’m disassociated, I still know what’s going on around me to a point. I know Leo and Paul are still in the room. I hear the door open and close before Paul walks over to me. I don’t flinch like I did as a kid. I know it just makes him happy when I react like that.

“Do you have anything you’d like to say to me, Bunny?” Paul asks as he grabs me by the hair and pulls my head back so he can see my face.

I could be a smartass, but I know that’s a bad idea. I remember he said I could thank him for that, so maybe he’s looking for something that says it’s consensual. Maybe if I play along, he will stop. Even if it backfires, it is no worse than what he would do to me anyway.

“Thank you,” I whisper.

“You are so welcome, Bunny,” he says as he leans down and kisses my forehead. “Remember me when you are naked in bed with them. Think of me when they fill all your tight holes. Know that no matter what they do, I will always be the one who did it first and better. They will never be able to compete with me.” Paul moves away from me just as the door comes open again.

Chapter fourteen

Sadie

I hear a rushof footsteps behind me as multiple people come into the room. My first thought is that he’s brought more people to rape me until someone scoops me up in their arms and Lance’s woodsy scent instantly brings me peace.

The first time in hours, I fall back into tears and cry as he holds me close to his body. I can hear Mason screaming at Paul, but Leo is gone. It’s right now that I realize that this was his plan all along. He never wanted to keep me, he just wanted a little time to break me.

“We’ve got you. You’re okay,” Lance says softly as he walks with me out of the cabin. “We are going to go sit in the car, okay?”

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