“Keir…” she spoke with a sharp inhale at my words.
I hadn’t meant to say all those things, to tell her I’d save her a million times over if I had to. To remind her she wasn’t broken to me.
“I can help.”
Her mouth fell open. “W—what?”
I swiped my tongue across my bottom lip, contemplating taking back my offer, but before reason could take control of my mouth, I said, “You need to get off, and I think I’ve proven I can get you there very well, as I am sure you recall. So let me help you.”
“You want to help get me off?” I nodded, and she swallowed, looking away as she considered my proposal. After a few seconds of thought, she looked back at me, standing taller than before. “And after?” I furrowed my brows. “If we did this, do you go back to being the cold, hard-headed asshole like you always do?”
Shit. She had me by the fucking balls, but she was right. Every time we got close in any capacity, I shoved her away. There was no reason for her to think this time would be different. Butshould she? I mean, why would tomorrow be any different just because I gave her the best damn orgasm of her life? Why would I give her any hope of that? Was I actually planning on being the doting…boyfriendshe’d turned my brothers into?
“Lillian…”
“Of course,” she scoffed at me. The eye roll that accompanied her words pissed me off more than I’d ever admit. “I can’t do it, Keir. I can’t let you touch me like that and then…” She searched for her next words. “Pretend like nothing happened.” Her eyes were glassy as she looked back up to me, hand over her heart. “It would change everything for me. I can’t do it if it changes nothing for you.”
Excruciating silence blanketed us. I wanted to walk out of the room and pretend like none of this happened, but I also wanted to throw her up against the wall and have my way with her until she was screamingmyname.
“I’ll take that as my confirmation.” She scowled.
I closed my eyes and sucked in a big breath, hoping some sense would enter my brain and force me to walk out of this stifling situation so I could breathe air that wasn’t sexually charged. As I let the breath go, I opened my eyes to find her slumped, her chin trembling. Her lips opened and closed again.
I hated seeing her like this.
“Fuck it.” I closed the distance between us to stand before her and released the shadows I’d been holding back for her sake. They began to close in around us, removing her opportunity to escape me. “Tell me you want this, princess,” I growled as my shadows crawled along her body, teasing her goosebump-covered flesh, my hands itching to do the same.
Her eyelids drooped, and she let out a whimper. “Keir…” My breathing halted as I waited for what came next. She had all the power right now, but there would be no turning back if she gave into this, into me. I tried to tell her that with my eyes, though, not sure I could speak the words that would give her an out, a small part of me afraid she might take it.
She licked her lips, and I wanted to claim them for myself. I wouldn’t, though. If she agreed to this, tonight would be about her pleasure, not mine. If I dove in now, neither of us would come up for air, at least not in time for her trial tomorrow. I couldn’t do that. I would give her what she needed, and then we would go to bed, and that would be that. We could deal with the rest later.
Fuck, what was taking her so long to decide? Was she really considering saying no? Had I botched this thing for us after all?
“I want it.” Her towel dropped, and I could see all of her, every delectable inch of her skin I’d been dying to taste. “I want you.”
I searched her eyes for a mere second before grabbing her hips and lifting her. Once she wrapped her legs around my waist, I took her from the bathroom to our bed.
I kept one arm wrapped around her back, holding her to me while I brought my free hand up to brush her cheek. She closed her eyes and leaned into my touch. As gently as I could manage, I laid her on the bed. Her hips moved to grind against my cock, which was stiff and throbbing, begging to be buried inside her.
I groaned and put my hands on her hips to steady her, reluctantly pulling myself away from her warmth. “Princess…” A blush rose to her cheeks as she bit down on one of her fingers. “Come sit between my legs,” I instructed her as I removed my shirt and climbed onto the bed, leaning against the headboard.
She made quick work of my command and was soon on her knees, bouncing nervously as she faced me. It was an intoxicating sight.
Lillian… on her knees… for me. The best part? It was of her own free will. She wanted this, wantedme. She’d been so fucking patient with me, and I was going to give her a taste tonight. One little taste.
“Turn around. Lay back on me.” I helped her get into position so she was facing away from me, her tight little ass fitting perfectly between my thighs. My body felt like it had been lit on fire, and I lost my breath momentarily when I pulled her down against me so her back rested against my bare chest. I rubbed my hands up her arms, savoring this moment between us. I’d touched her before, but never like this. This felt… different.
Her breathing was shallow, and she sat eerily still, as if she thought she’d scare me off if she moved. I brushed her hair to one side and watched my shadows dance across her neck, sweeping across the pale skin I so desperately wanted to suck into my mouth and mark as mine.
“Oh, fuck…”
I was lucky she was facing away from me, or I might’ve swallowed her words with my lips, sealing our intertwined fate forever. I had to be smart about this—go slowly for her, for me.
My cock was ready to explode just having her body against mine like this. I’d jacked off so many times to the thought of her, but it was nothing compared to having her in my arms, ready for me to touch her, please her.
My shadows were crawling over her skin, rounding her breasts and teasing her hard, pink nipples. She arched into them, wanting more. “I’m going to make you feel so goodtonight, princess.” I moved my hands to her bare hips, rubbing the area with my thumbs, dying to venture lower and touch her pussy. “Tell me how you like it. What makes you feel good? I want to know how you touch yourself. I’ll make it a hundred times better,” I whispered in her ear.
“I—uh…” She took a calming breath, gathering herself, but I made it even more challenging as my shadows pinched her nipples, making her gasp. “I don’t really know. I don’t—I’ve never really…” She trailed off.