Page 34 of Make Me Feel Again

Rylee

Iawakenwithasmile on my face and don’t remember the last time I wore a smile this big. Facing the wall, Cash envelopes me in his arms with his face buried in my neck. Last night didn’t go as planned, and I wouldn’t say we worked it out, but it’s a start. I smile at the way he made me picture the cabin, it was so clear in my head, it felt like I was there. The way he used me in the shower and talked me through it sends a shiver through my body.

“Are you cold.” Cash’s croaky voice breaks through my memories.

“No, I’m actually quite hot, with you wrapped around me.” I giggle as he pulls me into him tighter. I couldn’t even stand up after the shower last night, my body was exhausted. I didn’t even do much, but I think with how the night went, the emotions through the auction, and then the shower, my body just shut down. I remember Cash picking me up in the shower and sitting me on the end of the bed, wrapping a towel around me and drying me, and then laying me down in bed. I must have been out in a second because I don’t remember him climbing in next to me.

“Let me face you.” I giggle out as he tickles my waist. He loosens me, and I turn to face him. His blue eyes are darker than usual. His hair is ruffled. I run my fingers through his stubble, and gaze at his face. We’re naked, and I’m content being in his arms, happy. His eyes track mine, and we lie there in silence watching each other.

“I’m not waiting anymore, Ry.” He keeps his gaze on me. “You’re mine,” he whispers. I smile. He’s right. I’m his in every way, and I need to stop holding back.

“I’m yours, Cash.” As I say the words, everything around me stops. His eyes flare open and the blue turns darker.

“Say it again,” he says.

I smirk. “I’m yours,” I whisper. I get lost in the blue depths. His stare burns into my soul, and I hate and love how my body reacts to him, like it calls to him and he can see and feel it. His gaze travels down to my lips and back up to my eyes again. My heart rate increases as he inches forward. His lips ghost over mine, as if he thinks I’ll freak out at any minute. Not anymore. My whole body craves him, even my sick and twisted heart wants him. He pulls away slightly, and the heat swimming in his eyes mirrors mine. My body swarms in goose bumps as my breaths come out choppy.

Cash’s lips descend on mine, his tongue aggressively probing my lips. I open my mouth, letting our tongues intertwine. The kiss turns frantic as he overpowers me, then he rises, leaning over me, taking my mouth like he owns it. He makes me feel alive, and every sweep of his tongue against mine makes the real world fade around us, the sound of the birds tweeting wanes. It’s just us. Cash and me. I knew from the first moment we kissed it wouldn’t be the last, my body craved him without me even realizing. Every time the pain comes back, he’s there taking it away. The sudden realization has me halting my kiss. Cash stops and leans back. His expression sliding into a frown.

“You make it stop,” I whisper into his lips.

“What stop?” His gaze holds mine, waiting for me to continue.

“The pain. You make it all go away.” His next words make my heart soar because I know it’s not just me.

“You make me feel alive, Rylee. I haven’t felt this alive in a long time.” His heavy breaths fan my lips. “My light,” he whispers. His forehead rests on mine, and we stay like that for what feels like an eternity, with me feeling the most content and safe I have felt in a long time.

“You’re not going on that date,” I whisper into Cash’s chest.

“I’ll work something out.”

I lean up on my elbows, frowning at him.

“That wasn’t a ‘No, I won’t go on the date, Rylee.’”

He smirks at me. “Do you know how hot you are when you’re jealous?” He smiles. I smack his chest. He laughs and pulls me in for a hug, and kisses my head.

“I promise you I won’t go on that date.”

“What will you do, she paid 20,000 dollars for you to go on that date. Fucking show-off,” I mumble.

“Are you saying I’m not worth 20,000 dollars, Ry?” He pokes my waist.

“Hey, stop. I never said that.” He pulls me in for a hug.

“Cash, have you thought what you might say to Bridget and Bohdi?”

He lets out a sigh. “I have thought about it once or twice. There’s not really much they can say. They will just have to accept it. I know it’s not what people will expect or approve of, but they will eventually, it just may take time.”

I get that, but I don’t think I’m ready to have everyone go against me just yet. “Can we wait a little while? I don’t think I’m ready for everyone to hate me at the moment.”

“Yeah, I think you’re right.” Cash sighs. “I want to spend time with you though. Just us. I don’t want to have to sneak around each other’s houses like we are eighteen.”

“Neither do I, but what choice do we have.”

“Can you see if you can get the second week of December off?”

Cash eyes me with a curious smirk. “Erm, yeah. I don’t see why not. Why?”

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