Why do I keep jonesing for this guy when it’s clear he doesn’t want me?
A wave of embarrassment pulls me under and just like four years ago I turn on my heel and flee.
“Harper,” Asher calls after me but I don’t stop.
I keep going.
I keep going while hot tears sting the back of my eyes and my heart pounds in my throat.
What the hell is wrong with me?
It’s not like I haven’t walked down this road before. I know what’s at the end waiting for me—nothing.
Stick to the plan.
I need to because I owe him, but how the hell am I supposed to forget what we just did?
The problem with crossing lines that are already so blurred you can hardly see them is that you can’t find your way back. I sure as hell can’t.
I wish to God I could.
I wish this was as simple as telling myself I shouldn’t fall any deeper than I already have for him.
But how do you stop falling when you’re already sprawled on the ground?
Chapter Nineteen
Asher
Fuck.
I slam a fist into the wall and stare at the empty space where Harper stood.
What an absolute fucking clusterfuck.
God, do I have a way of making shit worse than it already is.
I’ve been thinking with my dick all night. Right from earlier when I saw Harper walk into the living room in that dress and all I could think of was getting heroutof the fucking dress.
Every move she made drew my attention to her gorgeous body and when I caught myself looking at her tits I kept thinking about her at the Dark Odyssey.
Her topless for some guy who wasn’t me. Then I wanted her for myself.
I knew that I wanted her. So I shouldn’t have agreed to hanging out. It’s not like I didn’t know something could happen between us. I felt it from the way she looked at me and I waseager to know if that part of her that used to want me still existed.
I shouldn’t have wanted that but the intense desire got the better of me and I agreed to hang out because I wanted to fall in the trap.
I wanted to be powerless to resist the temptation and the thought lured me in like an addict who can’t resist a fix.
As I feasted on her perfect breasts and ate out her pussy I wanted more.
I had every intention of taking more until I heard Josh in my head.
I heard his words in my head screaming at me that I wasn’t good enough for his sister. If I hadn’t stopped I’d be balls deep inside her by now.
Day one and I’ve already fucked up.
Now Harper is mad at me.