Page 12 of Awakened by Sin

“Why are you so determined to waste yourself on boys who don’t know what to do with you?” he asked.

“No one’s ever going to measure up to Vinny,” she said as his thumb rested against her bottom lip.

“No one will measure up if you’re looking at the bottom of the barrel.”

She shoved him, dislodging his hand from her face. “I’m not interested in a lecture. Hookups don’t talk, Marcus, they fuck.”

He slipped his hands into his pockets. “Do they?”

“Yes!”

His lips twitched. “It depends who you’re hooking up with.”

She bared her teeth. “I call the shots in this hookup, and I say no talking!”

He cocked his head to the side. “Is this what you’ve been doing since Vinny passed?”

She wanted to strangle him. “I haven’t been with anyone since Vinny!”

He looked appalled. “And this is how you want your first time to be?”

“Yes!”

“Carmen—”

She held up a shaking finger. “Don’t judge me! You have no idea what I’ve been through, no idea what it feels like to lose everything …”

Alcohol suffocated her emotions, but she was losing her nerve. He was making her think, and that was the last thing she needed. Vinny’s hold on her was so tight she couldn’t breathe, couldn’t function. If she didn’t break his hold on her, she would be stuck in purgatory.

Marcus stared at her. Something was going on in his eyes, but she couldn’t begin to decipher what that was. She felt very exposed under the bright lights, and this could only end in disaster. Even as the thought drifted through her mind, he nodded. He closed the distance between them and sank to his knees before her.

“If that’s what you want, I’ll give it to you,” he said.

He leaned forward and nuzzled her crotch through her dress. She went rigid as a flash of heat shot from her breasts to her pussy. Adrenaline zipped through her veins as large hands slid beneath her dress and skimmed down the backs of her thighs, knees, and lower. He lifted her foot and kissed her ankle. She sucked in a breath that was amplified in the quiet bathroom. He looked up. Their eyes connected, and her body tightened. Despite his submissive position, there was nothing shy about the way he was looking at her. Green eyes glittered with the promise of carnal satisfaction. Warmth pooled low.

“Tell me what you want, Carmen,” he murmured as he set her foot down and repeated the action with her other ankle.

He branded her knees with achingly sweet kisses and moved to her thighs.

“Your skin feels like silk. I can’t believe you would waste yourself on that boy. It’s sacrilege. You were meant to be cherished.”

Once upon a time, she had been, but that felt like ages ago. There was no use searching for the perfect man because he wasn’t out there. Vinny was her soulmate, and no one would ever fit her as well as he had. She had to learn to be satisfied with dirty, meaningless sex than hope for a mind-blowing soul connection and fall far short.

“What do you need?” he asked as his hands slipped beneath her dress and cupped her ass.

She thought he was a squeaky-clean, good boy, but he was ruining her image of him. He didn’t seem the type to agree to a bathroom hookup. Obviously, he had a secret kink, so she would take advantage of it. She would probably regret this in the future, but she was too far gone to care. “I want it hard and rough.”

“Mmmhmm.” He pulled her dress up and examined her underwear. He grinned. “You came prepared.”

“Of course.” She squirmed as he stared at her. “We don’t have all night, Fletcher.”

He smiled. “Right.”

He dipped his head, and his tongue slid over her. His hands on her ass gripped, and she angled her hips for him. The crotch less underwear she wore had been a calculated move on her part, and as his tongue slid inside her, she said a silent prayer of thanks. Pleasure unfurled inside her body, which had been in hibernation for too long. He grabbed one leg and slipped it over his shoulder, giving him better access. She closed her eyes and tipped her head back as she absorbed the feel of a man paying homage. Her body began to thaw, inch by slow inch, until the leg she was balancing on began to shake. Abruptly, she yanked his head back.

“Now,” she ordered.

“So responsive,” he crooned and kissed her quivering belly.

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