Page 51 of Losing Hope

Chapter Nineteen

Hope brushedthe tears off her cheeks and rose from the couch. “I shouldgo.”

Gage stood abruptly and took hold of her hand. “What? No! Stay. I don’t want you to leave.”

Shaking her head, she smiled wistfully and, pulling her hand from his, began walking toward the bedroom. “It’s better thisway.”

He trailed behind, hot on her heels. “What’s better thisway?”

She entered the bedroom and picked her dress up off the floor, shaking it to try to smooth out some of the wrinkles. She hated that she had to put it back on, but she certainly couldn’t leave wearing his shirt. She looked up at him and excused herself as she walked past him into the bathroom, shutting the door behindher.

She set her dress on the counter and began unbuttoning his shirt, unable to stop herself from burying her nose in the collar to inhale his scent just one more time. She wanted to sear it to memory, no matter how painful the burn may feel later. As she unfastened the last button, she slid the shirt off her shoulders and hung it on a hook fastened to the wall. She stepped into her dress, adjusting it into place, and pulled the zipper up slowly.

She should leave now. She was dressed. Why couldn’t she get her feet to move then? She looked at her reflection in the mirror and gazed at the hollow shell staring back. Five short days ago, her heart felt as if it would overflow with the love she had let herself believe in, and now, she felt gutted. She was being punished for the sins of her father—a father she had always loved and admired.

A soft knock sounded at the door. “Hope, you okay in there?”

She snapped her eyes away and opened the door briskly. “I’m fine. Just getting dressed.”

He moved to let her exit the bathroom but then stepped back in front of her, causing her to almost fall into him. “Please, don’t go. Let’s talk and figure this out.” He clutched her shoulders gently to steady her and looked surprised when he was met with a cold stare.

“It’s better if I leave now and just face the inevitable. Staying with you tonight will just make it harder.”

“Make what harder?” he spat out, frustration boiling its way to the surface.

She rolled her eyes and blew out a long breath. “Gage, we can’t be together. Not tonight. Not tomorrow. Not ever. I didn’t understand what happened on the jet, and still didn’t understand why we couldn’t overcome the obstacle of the accident after hearing my father’s story. But now, hearing your story, after what my father did, I understand. I understand all ofit.”

He shook his head and raked his fingers through his hair. “Hope, I don’t want to lose you. Seeing you tonight, being with you tonight, made me realize how much I need and want you. I don’t want what your father did to ruin what we could be. Why should we let him ruin yet another romance?”

“And how would you introduce me to your parents? Or to your grandparents? Do you really think that, every time you say or hear my last name, you won’t think of my father and get angry and not be able to take some of that out onme?”

He stared at her, dazed and silent.

“See? You can’t even deny what I’m saying because you know it’s true. And, Gage, he’s my father. No matter what he did—and believe me, I think it’s horrible and disturbing on so many levels—I can’t shut him out of my life. I work for him. I’ve loved him my whole life. How would we overcomethis?”

“I—I don’t know. But I know I’d like to try. Don’t you even want to try?” He grasped her gently and pulled her stiff body into his arms. “Please. I just found you. I don’t want to lose you, Hope.”

Her hands trailed slowly up his arms and gripped onto his biceps as her body began to tremble. Her head rested on his chest, her hair falling forward to mask her face, but her heart was being broken in two. He raised his hand to brush her hair away, but before he could, she wrenched free of his hold and turnedaway.

“No, no! I’m sorry. I can’t do this. It’s already too hard.” She turned and, upon seeing his grief-stricken expression, felt the very last of her composure begin to crumble. “Goodbye, Gage.” And then she fled from the room, the door slamming behind her as she dashed to the elevators.

She was expecting him to follow so wasn’t sure if she was relieved or more shattered when he didn’t. As she climbed into the elevator and pressed the button for the lobby, she began heaving great breaths of air to try to contain the sobs threatening to break free. How many more times was she going to have to grieve the loss of this perfect man? She wasn’t sure how much more her heart couldtake.

The elevator doors swished open, revealing a lobby that thankfully held only a handful of guests. She cast her head downward as she walked to the front desk and asked the clerk to please summon the car service for her, explaining one was on call for Yorke. Yes, she even had a car on call when needed, another perk of being Robert Yorke’s daughter. She laughed out loud, causing the desk clerk to look at her in concern. Yes, she had all the perks of being a Yorke, including the extra bonus of losing the man she had fallen in love with because ofit.

Gage’s heartthudded to a halt as he watched the door to his suite slam shut. How in the fuck did this just keep getting worse? Instinctually, he knew he should go after her, but common sense told him to let her go. She’d been through enough, and chasing after her would only cause her more pain right now. He’d told her things about her father that he knew she needed time to process.

He dropped down onto the closest sofa and reached for the nearly full tumbler of vodka he had poured for Hope, draining it in one gulp. He got up to make another when he heard his phone chirp, indicating an incoming message. His pulse quickened as he walked into the bedroom and pawed at the pockets of the slacks he had discarded earlier, looking for his phone. It finally tumbled out and thumped to the floor on itsown.

Bending to retrieve it, he was surprised to see a text from Ben. He sighed in disappointment because he really wanted that message to be from Hope. Swiping the screen, he clicked on Ben’s name to read the message.

Just saw Hope leave. I’m in the lobby bar if you want totalk.

He scratchedhis chin as he processed the message. Did he want to go down to the bar? Talk about Hope? Drown his sorrows? All of the above? Fuck it. He was going to go stir crazy if he stayed put in this room all night, especially with the smell of her on the sheets to haunt him. He pulled off the shorts and t-shirt he had on and switched them for a pair of jeans. Walking into the bathroom, he took the dress shirt he, and Hope, had worn earlier and, pulling it on, began fastening the buttons. Was it crazy that she only had it on for half an hour, but it made him feel like she was wrapped aroundhim?

He took the elevator down to the lobby and made his way to the bar, finding Ben seated by himself at the far end, a crystal tumbler of warm, brown liquid in front of him. Gage sat down on the empty stool beside Ben and nodded. “Hey.”

“Hey. Wasn’t sure if you were coming down.” He motioned for the bartender. “You want something?”

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