Page 62 of The Sky Between Us

“I don’t know what would make me happy. I feel guilty thinking of leaving him for an extensive period when he doesn’t even know the truth, Aiden. One day, I’ll have to tell him and I don’t know how he will react; if he will forever hate me or not, and it scares me. I just don’t know anything about the future… just… just that I want you in it.” My voice became raspy at the last part of the sentence as that was the complete truth. Doubts and fears filled my mind for the majority of the past five years, but ever since Aiden walked into my life, he quieted those voices. He leveled my continuous mood swings and brought peace. I was more grounded than ever before and I slowly started picking up the pieces of my own life, dealing with the weight I’ve been designed to carry. But I wasn’t ready to talk about the future. We still had months, which for a planner like him, seemed like days, and for an avoider like me, felt like years. All we had left was the present as no future was guaranteed for us.

“Come here, baby.” His arms wrapped around me and his lips found mine. The kiss he gave me reeked of desperation and need. I wasn’t the only one falling without a safety net, but I was the one dragging him along just because I was too selfish to let him go. My lips matched his, our tongues entangled and my arms snaked to his neck. Wrapping my fingers into his dirty blonde locks I pulled hard on it, making him groan. All the other times we were always careful, passionate and loving with each other. But now emotions ran high in both of us, the weight of the past few days came crashing and we needed to get out of our heads. We needed each other.

Grabbing my wrist, he pinned them to the bed and he stared at me with his dark blue desire filled eyes. Questions popped up in them, seeking permission without words. With a small nod, I gave it to him. All of me belonged to him already, there was no point in denying that any further.

His devious lips tortured me with kisses and his tongue drove me crazy as he made his way down my body with his throbbing erection pushed between us. My clothes disappeared one by one and before I could comprehend what was happening his head descended between my legs continuing his torture.

A surprised moan escaped me as his tongue circled my clit moments before his fingers filled me up.

“So wet,” he muttered against my sensitive skin, making me shiver and groan. “Just how I like it.”

He added an extra finger and stars danced in my eyes. With his free hand, he pushed my hips down, adding pressure onto the bottom of my stomach and keeping me in place.

“I want you to come for me, baby,” he spoke again, his teeth grazing my clit. “Come for me.”

I felt the ache build in me and my release was close, when I remembered we were in his childhood room and his father was downstairs. Closing my eyes tighter, I suddenly didn’t know what to do. I was so close, chasing my release, but I didn’t want anyone to hear me. What would they think of me?

“Baby,” Aiden detached his mouth from me, leaving only his hand between us, and his nose was suddenly brushing mine. “Just focus on me, okay? Get out of your head, it’s not a nice place.”

“You live there,” I muttered against his lips, making him grin.

“Then kiss me and claim me,” he challenged me without missing a beat. Lifting my head, I kissed him and our tongues melted into one without needing permission. I kissed him like my life depended on it, and he matched it with more intensity and passion. The ache between my legs exploded and my loud cry was swallowed up by our kiss. As I was coming down from the high, Aiden kept kissing my face, nose and neck, holding me in his arms.

Reaching my arm out, I wanted to touch him and please him just like he did to me, but Aiden grabbed my hand and laced his fingers with mine.

“Why did you do that?” I asked surprised, my eyes snapping open. His understanding, calm blue eyes waited for me and a small smile appeared on his lips.

“I wanted to get you out of your head because when you disappear like that, I feel like I’m losing a part of you. But now I know how to bring you back.” A satisfied smirk took over the cute smile, but I resisted the urge to smack him. He did know me well and he was observant and attended to all my needs.

“Thank you,” I muttered, the words sounding wrong.

Aiden laughed and shook his head. “Don’t say that again!”

“Fine,” I sighed dramatically and pushed myself up to sit in his lap. Wrapping my arms around his neck I pushed my nose to his, letting my hair fall around us like a curtain. “Thank you for being patient with me, for understanding me and for being by my side. I want to have a future with you, despite being scared all the time because… I love you. And I don’t think I’m ready to love you, and it scares me even more that I am, but I trust you, with all my heart and soul. I want us to work. I know it won’t be easy, and I’ll probably mess up a lot, but I wouldn’t want to do this with anyone else. I want it to be you.”

His eyes changed with every word I spoke. Kindness, happiness and love reflected in them, which made my heart swell.

“I love you too, baby,” he whispered quietly, as emotions squeezed his throat. “More than I think is humanly possible.”

A grin spread on my lips and I kissed him sloppily. “Now… would you please fuck me finally? I want you inside me.”

Aiden laughed, with a full-blown loud laughter, throwing his head back, but when he stopped, his eyes grew dark and filled with desire once again. “It’s quite sexy when you are bossy.”

“You are still talking,” I mumbled against his lips.

His fingers wrapped around my hair and pulling my head back he kissed the length of my neck. “I’m just giving you a chance to recover and take a break…”

“You are all talk,” I teased him with eyes half closed.

“Hmmm,” he contemplated as he kissed my chest and took one of my nipples in his mouth causing me to gasp. “You were saying?”

“You know what I was saying,” I said as I grinded against his erection through his jeans, while trying to unbutton them. “You should be inside me.”

“I should,” he grinned and reaching at the bedside table, he took a condom. Handing me the wrapped rubber, he pushed me out of his lap to undress. I watched in awe as he removed his shirt, his defined chest and abs appearing. Taking in the sight, my eyes followed the trail of abs to the big V that disappeared under his jeans, which he was kicking off with his boxers.

Poking out my tongue, I leaned forward and licked his full length as it appeared in front of me, before pulling the condom over it.

Aiden positioned himself back on the bed sitting by his headrest and arched a brow at my puzzled expression.

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