Page 35 of Never Forever

She kissed me, held me tight. She was dressed so beautifully, and I was sweaty and dirty and for some reason I loved that right now. For months with Carrie I’d been a gentleman. We’d gone slowly and I never asked for anything she didn’t offer. But now in this moment, I felt that control slipping away. I felt the hunger and the need I had for her, match the fear I’d felt that I’d lost her.

I’d only been drunk a few times in my life and it felt like that but sharper. Harder.

I fucking wanted her. Ineededher.

“Hey,” she breathed as I kissed my way down her neck.

“Yeah.”

“Let’s go to your truck.”

“What?”

“Your truck. I want you.”

I leaned back, her words not totally registering with me.

She smiled shyly. “Let’s have sex.”

“In my truck?”

“It’s either that or there is the buoy closet. But that would smell really fishy.”

Right. Yeah. Of course. “Oh, okay. Are you sure?”

“So sure,” she nodded.

8

When They Made Love

Matt

We ran for the truck. I couldn’t do it in the parking lot of the ferry, so I drove us to a special place. A place that was ours.

The bandshell.

“Where we started,” she said, when she realized where I was going.

I didn’t know what I was doing. My experience was Carrie and Carrie only. And while I didn’t know a ton about sex, I knew everything about Carrie. I knew how she liked to be kissed. How she was ticklish at her waist, but at the top of her hips, right where the bone was ridge under the skin, she would gasp and moan when I kissed her there. She liked my fingers inside of her, my thumb against the hard nub it took me such a long time to find.

She wasn’t sold on me going down on her.

But tonight…I wanted everything. Every part of her. I didn’t think I’d ever have her back in my arms and now I was never going to let her go.

I pulled out the box of condoms I kept in the glove compartment and together we laid down on the bench seat of the truck.

I kissed my way down her breasts. Across her stomach, which was trembling and soft. I licked her belly button. I could feel the heat between her legs. I couldsmellit. Fuck. I’d never been so hard in all my life.

She wore black silky underwear which drove me insane. I kissed the skin right above the lace, and then, in a move so bold I couldn’t believe it was me doing it, I kissed the satin over her pussy. It was wet and salty and I licked it because I couldn’t stop myself.

She jumped, but I put a hand on her chest to hold her still.

“I have to,” I told her. “Let me.”

I looked up and found her eyes wide. Still watching her, I leaned down again and licked that damp spot, that salty sweetness. She exhaled so hard, her body curved. Her eyes went unfocused.

That’s good, I thought.

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