Page 64 of Holding The Reins

Why did I say that? I’m the definition of facepalm in this moment. He mercifully ignores my comment and changes the subject.

Mr. Carter

So why are you busy tonight?

How do you know I’m busy?

Mr. Carter

You told me this morning.

I did?

I did?

Mr. Carter

Yes, pre morning sex.

I remember telling him when I read his response, I had completely forgotten until now. Proof my brain doesn’t work properly when he’s kissing me or touching me.

Mr. Carter

In your defense, I was distracting you at the time.

That I remember.

Yes, I’ll take that defense. Too much sex = temporary amnesia.

Mr. Carter

I’m ok with that, it makes me look good.

If you must know, I am having a sleepover with Mabel. We’ll be roasting mellows.

Mr. Carter

I’ll be slinging whiskeys and keeping the drunkards of this town in order. Have a good night with Mabes.

Have a good night slinging drinks.

Why does this seem so awkward? The reality that this is it actually hits me as I start Mabel’s pizza. It’s too late for me. I’ve gone and done it. I’ve let Nash Carter in where he doesn’t belong.

“Iknew it,” Ginger squeals as I wrap the flannel blanket around my body tighter. It’s cool tonight and we’ve been out here for hours. Mabel finally went to bed with Mama Jo after we wore her out with manis and pedis all around, way too much sugar and song after song on Just Dance.

“I really feel like I’ve made a mistake now. It was just fine this morning but I don’t know… felt a little awkward this afternoon,” I say. “Ugh, why does he have to be so fucking incredible?” I bury my head in my hands.

“Was it good, is the real question,” Olivia asks.

I look at her like ‘are you fucking kidding me?’

“It was, wasn’t it?” She covers her mouth with her hand. “Oh my God. How good?”

“So fucking good. The best ever,” I give.

“Why only one night? He doesn’t look at you like only one night,” Ginger says, thinking carefully.

“He told me when I got home that he doesn’t want a relationship. Forever the playboy, I guess. Besides, he’s got his hands in everything. When would he have time for something more? I’m also pretty sure he thinks Wade and Cole will kill him.”

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