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He smiled, sighing in relief. “Yeah, we do. And while we wait for me to be ready, I’m going to take care of you.”

He pulled out and walked into my bathroom, disposing of the condom. I heard the water turn on and wondered what he was doing. He came back out with a washcloth. “I read that this might feel good.”

Carefully, Maddox placed it on my lady parts, and the heat did feel nice. He cleaned me up, taking extra care to be gentle. When he was done, he pulled me into his arms, kissing me softly. His hands kept exploring, and he moved down, kissing me all over.

“I need to map out every inch of you.”

“Feel free.” I laughed, not minding at all. His fingers found their way to my core, and he quickly brought me the orgasm I’d been teetering around.

“Yes, yes,” I screamed, my hands grasping at the sheets. Maddox kissed me, a smug look on his face, and I realized he was ready to go already. This time, he pulled me on top, and it didn’t hurt as much. All night, we tried different positions, only stopping for food and water a couple of times. We went through a whole box of condoms, but it was everything I could've asked for.

Standing at the door, he held me in his arms, his lips on my forehead. “I don’t want to leave.”

“I don’t want you to.”

He kissed me one last time, pulling away. “Will I see you again?”

“Of course, Princess. This isn’t goodbye forever.”

“So until then, we just pretend like we didn’t just fuck each other’s brains out?”

“I’ll never be able to pretend with you. This night has been the best one of my life, and it will be what gets me through the dark days ahead.”

“I wish you’d just tell me. I don’t know if I can do this again.”

“We have to. You promised.”

“I want to hate you. It’s easier then.”

“I know, Princess. I don’t want you to wait, though. Keep living your life, and when it’s our time, I’ll come for you, and we’ll ride off into the sunset. I promise.”

“Fuck, I love you, Maddox. Don’t make me miss you too much.”

He kissed me hard, tears falling from both of our eyes as he stepped away and walked out that door.

I slid to the ground, not even making it a step before it felt like the world was falling apart again.

Diary #10

Dear Mom,

Have you ever felt so happy in one moment and broken in another? That’s how it feels right now, with Maddox gone. Our night together was everything I knew it would be, but I miss him even more now. The loneliness isn’t as consuming, though. Having friends has helped, and some of my clients I’ve gotten close to. It just sucks because I wish I could meet them in person.

It’s kind of my life though—I can’t have it all.

Every morning, I wake up and I promise myself I won’t check the message board. I think I need some space from Maddox to heal. Not that I blame him, I don’t. I understand and I know what he’s doing isn’t easy, but it still hurts.

The thing I’ve noticed, though, I’m not as weak as I once was. It hurts to miss him, but I’m not lost anymore, and I’m really starting to like the Darcie I’m becoming.

Love you,

Darcie

Eleven

MADDOX

I tossed back another shot,hoping the burn would take the feel of her around me away. I thought if I had one night with Darcie, then I’d be able to focus, concentrate on the task ahead of me, and fight to make it back to her.

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