Page 45 of For the Love of Lily

Luke shook his head in confusion. “And you brought this up because?”

“I was thinking, imagine if I gave everything up, and then you had a micropenis.”

“Firstly, can we stop saying that word, it’s weird,” Luke laughed. “Secondly, you’d only be with me for my penis, is that what you’re saying?”

“Not only for that, of course, but I might find myself thinking about it quite a lot.”

“Lily, stop,” Luke warned. “It’s not micro, don’t worry.”

“You would say that though, wouldn’t you? Dare you to prove it.” I watched him with a smile. We had dared each other a lot of stuff over the years. I knew he didn’t like to back down.

He gulped down more wine as his eyes flicked over me. “That’d mean you have to go through with whatever I dare you too.”

“Fine with me,” I smiled defiantly.

“Turn around then.” Luke pushed me to my side, so I had my back to him, talking to me as he unzipped his jeans.

He kissed the crook of my neck as he spoke. “I dare you to answer my questions. How many people have you had sex with, Lily?” One of his hands rested on my hip, I could hear the other moving around in his jeans. This was so hot – damn drunk brain!

“Two. You know that.”

“Just checking I didn’t miss anything. Most adventurous place you did it?” Luke asked, his lips still against my skin.

“I’m so dull. A hotel?” I shivered as his fingers tickled my skin.

“Never say you’re dull. I’ll teach you everything, Lily.” Even the sound of him breathing was driving me insane.

“Before I complete my dare, I don’t think I should be the only one touching myself.” I tried to twist my head around to look at him, but he pushed it back with a soft touch. “No peeking. It’s up to you. I’m ready if you are.”

I gulped. This would be the point to stop and admit it had gone too far. But Luke had put in so much effort now. I’d promised no shagging to Cassie; this didn’t count. This was something else. Bloody drunk brain and its persuasive arguments.

I closed my eyes, torn between embarrassment and pure lust as I slid my hand inside my skinny jeans, wishing they weren’t so tight. I stopped at the waistband. Luke moved his hand from my hip and placed it on my wrist, pushing my hand lower. “Don’t stop,” he whispered.

I sucked in a sharp breath as my fingers slid down between my thighs. “That’s better,” Luke said, as I felt him shift backwards. He tugged at the silky material of my top, pulling it up so my back was bare.

His hot skin touched the base of my spine, and a shiver ran through my entire body. “Is this proof enough?” he asked as he pressed himself fully against my back.

Neither of us moved for a second. I realised this really was too far. Zack was at home thinking I was having a nice chat with Cassie, not figuring out how big my friend’s penis was.

“Lily, we’ve gone too far,” Luke spoke into my ear as he pulled away. “You know full well I can’t resist a dare. I’m going to head home. I want you to stay there and keep doing that. OK?”

“Please don’t go.” I tried to turn over, but he held me still.

“Shh. I’ll see you soon. I love you.” I watched him stand and struggle to zip himself back up.

“I love you too,” I replied. Scared by how much, as I climbed out of the bed and hugged him.

“That’s the first time you said it like that to me,” Luke smiled and kissed the top of my head.

“I do love you. Scares me to death, but I can’t deny it.”

“We’re going to reach a point of no return, Lily.” He kissed me with such sweetness as he left. I knew it was better he went, but I was struggling. After locking the door, I jumped back into bed, and straight back into my underwear. Why hadn’t we done dares like that before? Sexiest moment of my life.

Sixteen

I spent a gorgeous morning with Cassie and the girls, flying kites at the park and eating ice creams. It was only as I headed home that the guilt and the loathing began to set back into me as I thought about what I’d done. How it would make Zack feel. I may not have had sex with Luke, but it was still a betrayal. How would I feel if Zack had spent a night like that with another woman? Pressing himself to her like that. I shivered at the memory.

My feet crunched down the gravel to our front door. It felt like I’d been gone weeks, not less than a day. My whole world felt different. Luke was right, my life with Zack could be undone, but was I certain I wanted it to be?

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