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Should I say something?

I glanced over at the receptionist, who was on the phone, but then decided to forget it. I’d just tell them later I was joking if asked. From here on out, I’d be more focused when filling in the rest of my answers.

What is your active sexual life in years? How long and how often did you have sex?

I was in a relationship for seven years. We had sex three times a week the first year and progressively less over the years. We had sex three times the whole of the last year.

What is more important, physical attraction or personality?

I hesitated. The question was too vague. I had to be attracted to him, but I didn’t want a wimp. I chose looks, but also wrote in the Other section.

I like a combination of both.

I laughed. I sure was making a tall order, but then looks were subjective. What attracts one person may not attract another. The next question went into more detail.

What turns you on more, being in control or giving up control?

I was used to being in control. I had run Patrick’s campaigns, and now I ran my own company. I wasn’t as experienced in the bedroom and wouldn’t mind having a more dominant partner there. I clicked on Other and wrote a quick explanation in the box.

I run a business and wouldn’t want to be controlled all the time. I would consider sexual control only.

Have you ever tried role-play, spanking, bondage, breath-play, watersports, scat, whips…?

The list went on, and most I’d have to look up, but for now my answer was easy.

No.

From the list above, which one piques your curiosity?

This was my moment. I could answer No interest or Willing to try a few new things. On the other hand, I didn’t want to be thrown into the deep end. Therefore, I selected Other once again.

I don’t like extreme humiliation or severe pain. I’m not ready for anything too far out of the mainstream.

After all, you must walk before you run. I doubted there would ever be such a match that would get me to entertain surrendering so much of myself.

How do you feel about enclosed spaces?

I don’t mind.

How do you feel about being restrained?

I paused at that one. Where on the spectrum did I fall? Better to be cautious.

I wouldn’t be a match for anyone into anything extreme. That means not past silk scarves on my wrists.

Have you watched porn or read erotica?

I smirked. Hasn’t everyone? It then went into detail on how much I read, how often, and what turned me on. I didn’t believe myself to be dirty, but I didn’t know what kind of partner I would attract with these answers. My mind wrestled with my honesty, but I answered close to the truth.

Often.

Are you embarrassed by these questions?

I laughed a little.

Yes.

I completed the rest of the questions and handed over the iPad. A staff member took me back to a physical exam room for a health screen for drugs and sexually transmitted diseases. The screen included a request for me to list all forms of birth control used in the present and past. I had been on the pill since I was seventeen and had done a physical during my divorce, but they were adamant about doing their own. I appreciated their care toward clients’ health, sexual and otherwise, and complied. Then I was taken next door to a small dimly lit office with two overstuffed cushioned chairs. William, an older male in a white lab coat and designer slacks, greeted me before I took a seat. “How did you find our process?” he asked.

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