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Oh, this lemonade wasn't strong enough. I poured another glass, until the cool pitcher emptied, but I was far from refreshed. Yes, Eric was right. No more checking the comments. In fact, I thought I'd make the video private. I wasn't ready to let in any kind of energy that wasn't enriching my soul and feeding me positivity.

Turning off my phone, I forced air into my lungs and tried to factory reset my body. Or at least, back to the moment where my only concern was the sun on my breasts.

Chapter 56

Matt

"Ihave to get back to Lily," I groaned as Ryan's kisses traveled down the back of my neck and his morning wood poked me in the back.

"Oh, but we can make so much more content for her," he grumbled, wrapping his arms around my waist and scooting me back as I pulled away.

I chuckled. "I haven't seen her for days, my ass is sore, and you won't let me fuck you. Besides..." I yawned. "I miss her."

Taking his hand off me, I hopped toward the edge of the king-sized bed. Now, Ryan groaned and rolled over on his back, arms splayed out like a sacrifice.

"Fuck, I envy you," he sighed.

"You can come over if you want. Say hi. I'm sure she'll be happy as hell to see you." I pulled on my shorts and looked for the other foot of my slides.

"Hell, I think I might cry if I do." He popped off the bed and opened his luggage.

"Aw," I teased.

"Shut up." Pulling out a large envelope, he handed it to me. "For Lily."

I opened it and pulled out artistic shots of my face in the throes of pleasure, his cock in my ass, and his full mulberry pink lips on my skin.

"Fuck," my voice rasped. "They're beautiful. When the hell did you develop these?"

My cock stirred.

"Slipped out while you were asleep." Ryan wiggled his eyebrows at me before coming up and slapping my ass. "You slept so good after I fucked you," he grinned into my neck.

"Ha! You think it was your sexual prowess. But I've been tired after running around after your ass all the time. And so fucking relieved we don't have to keep running anymore. I finally feel safe," I sighed.

"Even after she posted the photos and video?" Ryan asked.

"Yeah, why not? Tyler said everything's okay, right? What else do we have to worry about? Is that why you're distracting yourself with sex?" I tilted my head at him.

His eyebrows came together. "Who says I'm distracting myself with sex?"

"Ryan, I've been here for two days straight and I've barely eaten anything. All we've been doing is sleeping and having sex. Or at least I've been sleeping and having sex. You've been dipping out when you should be sleeping, or at the very least, bringing us back some food." I released a heavy sigh.

"You weren't complaining before." He clenched his jaw.

"I'm not complaining now. I'm just saying you're running from something, still. And you won't talk about it," I insisted.

"Yeah, well, you try going without sex for several weeks, pining after the woman you love, who won't even look at you for too long, rubbing your cock until you get bored of your own damn hand, fighting demons while trying to clutch onto an image of her in your head before she used to look at you terrified. Then, have her kiss you and leave you hanging. Have her request to see you fuck your best friend. And get your cock gripped by a tight, warm hole while she watches. Get left with that image and that tight hole for hours after, and tell me you wouldn't be obsessed with fucking," he breathed.

"So, that's all I am to you? A tight, warm hole?" I liked being used for sex and all, but there was still a pinch inside my chest.

He grinned. "What were you expecting me to say? That I love you?"

I gulped. "Of course not. I know you're incapable of multitasking. You never were able to do two things at once. You can only love Lily. I get that."

He walked over to me and trailed a finger down the side of my arm. "But I do love you. You're my best friend. The only one who stuck by me when you really shouldn't have. I didn't appreciate you well enough before. Maybe now, I just want to shower you with the appreciation you deserve." His eyes raked over my skin, up to my face.

My heart thumped madly. "You're running again," I panted.

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