Page 81 of Cross the Line

The tips of Theo’s ears go bright red and Alec can’t help but cackle. He might be the virgin, but he isn’t a blushing one. He swings both of his legs out, hooking them around Theo’s waist to get him as close as possible.

“Wait.” Theo’s face scrunches in confusion. “Weren’t you chewing gum?”

“Uh-huh.” Alec’s smirk widens. “I swallow.”

“Jesus Christ, Alec.”

“Yo no soy Jesús,” Alec deadpans.

“I know you’re teasing me, but you sound really sexy when you speak Spanish.”

“Oh, Theodore, I always sound sexy.” Alec tightens his legs around Theo so his erection comes into contact with Theo’s belly, leaving Theo with no question about how Alec currently feels. There are so many things Alec can’t say, but maybe just this once he can let his body do the talking. “¿Cómo te gusta coger?”

“That’s about sex right?” Theo grunts, his eyes firmly on Alec’s lap. “My Spanish is not nearly as good as yours.”

“Sí.” Alec leans forward, delighting in having Theo’s mouth at the same level as his own. “I said I want you to show me how you fuck—more or less. It definitely sounds sexier in spanish.”

The blush on Theo’s cheeks darkens. “Are you always in such a hurry?”

“Hurry?” Alec barks. “I’m twenty-one. There is no hurry about it. Chop-chop, mister. I expect the fucking of my life or else I’ll demand a do-over.”

“Will you?” Theo laughs, a pretty flush spreading down his neck.

Maybe Alec should be overthinking things now. Maybe he should be more upset about the fact that Theo thinks Alec doesn’t have feelings for him, and made sure Alec knew this is a friends with benefits arrangement, which is definitely not Alec’s thing. Or maybe a one time fuck arrangement. He probably should’ve clarified since neither of those are Alec’s things. But what is Alec’s thing, is Theo.

Sure, when this is done his heart will be broken beyond repair, but that’s Alec’s choice to make.

You deserve a special first time. That’s what Theo said. Who better to make that special than the love of Alec’s entire goddamn life? Even if he has no idea. Even if he won’t return the feelings. Even if all he wants from Alec is the same thing everyone else has always wanted from him—sex. The love in his heart has hurt for so long, maybe for once he can let it out. Maybe then it won’t hurt so badly.

“Any hard nos?” Theo asks, settling his hands on the side of Alec’s hips.

Alec shakes his head.

“I guess if you haven’t done a lot you might not know, but if there is anything you think you might be uncomfortable with or you realize partly through that you are, you can tell me. I know how much you like to run that mouth of yours.”

“You like my mouth,” Alec smirks, letting his legs swing on either side of Theo.

“Don’t tell Jason, but yes.”

Alec’s smile threatens to split his face in two, and he’s surprised Theo isn’t calling bullshit on his pathetic lie. He has no idea how Theo doesn’t look at him and immediately know he’s in love with him. It’s a blessing and a curse that Theo’s got the world’s biggest blinders on when it comes to Alec.

“I’m serious though, if you’re uncomfortable with anything or?—”

“You can do anything to me.”

“Don’t tell men that,” Theo hisses. “Men are the worst.”

“Well, yes, they are. But I’m not telling random men, I’m telling you.”

“Well, don’t tell me that. What if I take advantage of you?”

“I would say please and thank you.” Alec leans back on the kitchen island, lifting his leg so his heel presses into Theo’s ass. He still can’t believe he’s doing this, that he’s actually talking about sex with Theo.

“What the hell am I going to do with you?” Theo groans.

“Ideally fuck me, unless you changed your mind. Do you need a nap?”

“Cheeky asshole.” Theo runs one of his big hands from Alec’s knee up his thigh so his bare fingers sit on Alec’s bare hip. His fingers curl around flesh, holding on tight as if Alec might leave, as if anything in the world could drag him away from this moment.

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