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I mean, she knows Jasper and I are back together, but that’s it. I’ll have to make time to reach out and meet her for lunch. Of course, she’s in her own happy bubble with Liam. Who would’ve thought that Linc not showing up was the best thing to happen to her because it led her to Liam.

Heck, from what I’ve heard, all of us who were in the wedding party, or almost all of us, have found love.

Lorelei: Hey, girlie, I hope you’re doing well. I miss you and feel like I haven’t seen you in forever. Lunch soon?

I set my phone back down and get to work.

Chapter Eighteen

Lorelei

One Month Later

Which one do I pick? I glance at the variety of pregnancy tests on the shelves. My period is only a day late, but I’m impatient and dying to know if I’m pregnant. I haven’t told Jasper my period is late. I’m not sure why, maybe because what if I’m not, maybe he’ll be disappointed, or worse, what if he’s happy?

I’ll just wait to say something when there is something to say. I grab three different brands and head to the front of the store. After paying for them, I head out to my SUV. Jasper is working late tonight so I’ll be able to do the tests before he gets home.

First, I should rewind a bit. A lot has happened. First, Jasper and I decided to start looking for our new home. We had spoken to Jefferson about it during one of our sessions. He asked us about how we felt making these big steps, but we’re both ready. We both have fears, but together we can get through them, if we’re open and honest about our feelings.

We’ve looked at multiple houses and have not really found anything that has screamed home. Thankfully we have plenty of time and we’ll keep looking until we find the place we want to make ours.

Bob Vance has finally accepted Jasper and I’ve found him, more than once, cuddled up to him. It’s cute, but that’s my cat.

Last week, Jasper took me out for dinner and while we walked hand in hand through the restaurant, I saw Jake there with a table full of guys. We made eye contact, I smiled, and then he looked away. It bummed me out a bit, but he’s not meant for me, but I hope he finds the girl who feels that way.

Other than that, things have gone back to normal with us. When I say normal, I mean like things were before we started fighting when I had decided I wanted children.

At the counter, I pay for my tests and the sweet little lady tells me good luck. On my way home, my stomach does a little flip. I place a hand on it, taking a deep breath. There could be a baby in here right now.

I get back to the apartment and let myself inside. In the car I chugged a bottle of water and now I have to pee. Carrying the bag into the bathroom, I quickly do my business on the first two sticks. I set them on the counter and quickly wash my hands.

While I wait, I pace back and forth in the small space. Bob watches me from the open door. “What do you think, Bob? Do you think you’d like a baby brother or sister?”

Bob tips his head to the side. “Meow,” he says before turning and walking out of the room.

I stop in front of the counter, wanting to look, but also afraid to. Grabbing them both, I take a deep breath and flip them over. Looking down I gasp, my heart starts to race, and tears fill my eyes. “Positive,” I say quietly. “We’re having a baby.”

Dropping to my knees, I cry like a baby. So happy and so scared. How could it happen this fast? I pinch my arm and yelp, but at least I know I’m not dreaming. All I want to do right now is tell Jasper, but I can’t, not until I know for sure I am truly pregnant.

I’ll call and make an appointment tomorrow, and once it’s confirmed I’ll tell him. I wrap the tests in toilet paper, burying them in the bottom of the trash can. I stick the unopened test in the drawer with my period stuff.

In the kitchen, I pull out the chicken for dinner. While the oven is preheating, I cut the chicken breasts into strips. It takes me a half hour to make the mixture I am going to use to bread the chicken. I make a big salad and stick it in the refrigerator.

I text Jasper to let me know when he’s on his way home, so I can throw the chicken in the oven.

Hopefully when he gets home, I don’t let on that something is going on. I just don’t want to tell him anything until there is officially something to say. Yes, maybe I’m a little scared how he’s going to react. I know that’s wrong, especially since he did tell me he wants to have a baby with me. Now that it’s possibly a reality I think my fear is starting to set in.

What if he changes his mind now there is a baby coming? Ugh, no, I’m not going to go there. This is happy news and I’m going to be freaking happy about it. I know he will be too.

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“Well, you’re definitely pregnant.” Dr. Olson smiles as she walks in the room.

I, of course, begin to cry again. I’m so freaking happy right now. It’s been two weeks since I took the pregnancy test and I have had such a hard time keeping it to myself. Especially in those quiet moments where we’re snuggling together.

Tomorrow we have an appointment to go look at a house. It’s a three bedroom, three bath with an open floor plan. Two of the bedrooms that could totally be for our babies face the backyard and the trees that are flowering. It’s the perfect view while rocking our baby.

Focusing back on the doctor, I smile. “This is great. Is it normal to get pregnant so fast after having my IUD take out?”

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