Page 35 of Sinners MC: A MC Anthology

“Oh God…Lisa. I-I don’t have the words to express how sorry I am.” His voice was muffled by his lips pressed against my temple.

“I was so blinded by my own pain that I didn’t allow myself to see the reality…I’m so sorry, and no matter how many times I say it, it will never be enough.”

I laughed humorlessly as I bucked away from his hold and pushed his chest.

“Feels painful, doesn’t it? You keep saying sorry again and again, and the person makes you sweat for it. The place you are in now, I was there months ago. But not anymore, because I can never forgive you for what you did to me and how you treated me,” I growled, and then I lifted my knee, hitting him hard in his groin.

He knelt down instantly, pain radiating all over his face as he grabbed his crotch and grunted deeply, while I kept staring at his hunched over form.

“I loved you, and that love made me determined to get you back. But it was all a vain attempt.”

He was struggling, but at the same time his gaze never left mine as he let my words hurt him further.

“I’m?” his voice croaked.

“I don’t want to hear your apologies anymore. Just leave me alone and never show me your face again.”

I didn’t need him. I didn’t want him.

“I will make it up to you.” He straightened, his nostrils flaring as he breathed through the physical pain. I wiped at my eyes with the back of my hand and swallowed the lump in my throat.

“Why? So that you could win the bet?”

He shook his head. “No. I never gave a fuck about the bet. I had to say yes to it. Otherwise someone else would have trapped you for it, and I would never let that happen because I love you.”

This time, his confession took away my breath as I stood still in shock. If he said those words before all this chaos happened, my heart would have melted, but instead those words infuriate me.

“Get out!” I pushed him toward the door with all my might. Luckily, Monica barged in the room and helped me.

“You heard her, get out,” she warned him.

Aiden kept his eyes on me as I stood at the doorway with my hand grasping on the knob tightly.

“I can’t take the pain and sorrow back, Lisa. I love you, and I loved you for a long time. I know you won’t believe me now, but I felt it the day I saw you. I’ve ruined everything, but I promise that I will fix this. I swear on our love that I will make this right.”

“That day will never come,” I whispered, shutting the door in his face.

CHAPTER 6

I thought Aiden would let this matter go, but I was wrong.

For the next several days, he showed up everywhere I went. Worst thing was that he knew I wouldn’t make a scene in public or anywhere else, so he talked to me and treated me like I was his girlfriend.

Girls still approached him whenever he was with me, but he didn’t even bother looking at them for a second. His whole focus was trained on me only.

At first, it annoyed me because every time I looked at him, I was reminded of his betrayal. But I couldn’t miss the guilt painted on his face every single time I brushed him off, showing my ignorance.

It was like now he realized what I’d been through, and it made the guilt weigh heavier on his shoulders.

Day after day, I told myself not to fall for his words, but it seemed like my heart wasn’t going to cooperate with my thoughts.

I kept waiting for the day Aiden would finally give up. I uttered every harsh word possible to push him away, and I saw the hurt in his eyes, but that didn’t budge him.

Day after day, he showed his affection and love for me with some of my favorite gifts. Every evening when I returned to my dorm, I would find my favorite orchids at the doorstep with a sorry note on it. At first, I would throw them away, but eventually those flowers got to be inside my favorite vase, and the notes were all hidden inside my drawers. It’d been a month now, and I still hadn’t responded to any of Aiden’s acts.

But thinking of them made me see he was really trying to earn my forgiveness, even though I was crushing his heart intentionally.

After the class ended, I felt a slight discomfort in my chest, but I ignored it, making my way outside with Monica, expecting Aiden to be outside sitting on his motorbike. But he wasn’t there. I felt the slight ache in my heart that he wasn’t there, but I didn’t show it off. I crossed the driveway and suddenly froze. A sharp pain shot through my chest. My legs turned to Jell-O as I knelt on the ground, grasping the left side of my chest. Monica let out a shocked cry.

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