Page 77 of More To Us

"Yeah." I'm glad she's finally realizing this. I don't know what took her so long.

"Like when you and Austin are together, I can feel the chemistry you guys have. Everyone can. Even Matt commented on it."

"He did?"

"Yeah, that's why he suggested we let you guys have the apartment last night." She sits up. "Speaking of that, did anything happen?"

"No. Austin ended up going home after we left the bar."

"Did you guys fight or something?"

"No, he was just tired so he left." At least I hope that's the reason, but I'm assuming it is because he doesn't seem mad today. "So going back to you and Matt, are you canceling your dinner tonight? Or what are you going to do?"

"I don't know." She falls back on the bed again. "I don't feel ready to break up with him. Maybe last night only sucked because my mind was on Dylan. I've been trying to forget about him, but then Austin was talking about him and I kept imagining that night we spent together. Talk about sparks. Dylan and I had so many sparks we could've started a fire."

"If you don't feel that way with Matt, then maybe you need to find someone else."

"I don't think I'll feel those kind of sparks with anyone ever again. I only felt that way with Dylan because we didn't know each other. It was the unknown, the mystery about each other, that made us feel like that. If we were actually dating, it'd be different."

"Are you sure about that? Because I've been dating Austin for almost a week and the sparks I felt when I met him are still there, and they're not going away. If anything, they're even stronger."

She sits up. "You're not making me feel better."

"Sorry. I just want you to be with someone you really like."

"I like Matt. We just need to figure out that part of our relationship. I'll make him dinner tonight and I'll shove Dylan out of my head and then maybe the sparks will appear."

"Maybe," I say, but I don't think they will. The chemistry is either there or it's not. I know Amber already knows that, but for whatever reason, she wants to keep dating Matt.

As for my own man, I need to get back to him. He's probably wondering what's going on in here. I'm sure he heard Amber and me fighting, but I hope he didn't hear what we said. I still don't want to tell him the truth about what happened to me. I'd rather he never know. He doesn't need to. I'm fine now. My workouts are going well, and if I keep them up, maybe I could try competing next year. Even if it's just a local competition, that's a start. I just need to be a gymnast again, both for my family and for me.

Gymnastics is all I've ever known. It's what I'm good at. It's what makes me happy. What makes me feel like me. Without it, I feel lost. I don't know who I am.

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