CHAPTER 1
ELARA
My fingers feather over my abdomen, my heart racing.
I wish it would all stop.
I need it to stop.
Because it hurts.
It hurts so much I can’t breathe.
I often wonder when it’ll actually stop hurting. When I’ll finally be able to breathe again.
Except that’ll never happen.
I’ll always live this way: in fear. Looking over my shoulder. Wondering when he’ll come back and finish what he started.
I’m in a constant loop of the past. Stuck in cement. Unable to climb out.
I want to.
I’ve tried.
Yet I still see his face.
Both of their faces.
My life has never been the same since I found out.
Since I was forced to do things no one should be forced to do.
So I knew I had to go.
And I made a plan to run.
When that day finally came, I did.
I left it all behind.
My life.
My past.
I tore off the woman I used to be, and in her place, I became Elara Hill.
Evelyn Connors was someone else. She had to be. I couldn’t be her anymore.
Foolishly, I thought leaving it all behind would be enough. But it wasn’t. Because I’m still here, reminded of what was.
Reminded of the betrayals.
The lies.
The pain.
I didn’t think I could get away. But I made a friend, Derek, who set me up with a whole new identity.