Page 14 of Rolling with my Professors

I don’t have to finish my nursing classes to understand the consequences of unprotected sex.

Christ! We willingly had unprotected sex… if ‘just the tip’ counts. It does. And I’m frozen in his arms, kind of hoping… No! This is wrong.

I need to stop my thoughts. My actions. I’m one heartbeat away from a total freakout. And one overeager sperm away from a baby. The nausea doubles down.

The second the sound of Josh’s car fades into the distance, I shove out of Sterling’s arms, doing the best I can to hide my panic. “That was close.”

He tries to pull me back but I grab the edge of the hot tub and fling myself onto the deck. It’s not graceful. My wet foot slips and I stumble, landing face down.

Sterling is at the edge of the tub, leaning over, reaching for me. “You okay?”

“Yep.” I stand, attempting to shove my clingy hair over my shoulder. A deranged appearance is the least of my problems.

Rutherford rounds the corner. “I got rid of him. No need to—”

“I’d like to go home now.”

Sterling jumps out. I’ll attribute his perfect landing to practice. “Don’t leave. We just—”

Waving him off, I grab a towel. “I don’t need it explained. What we did was…” I’m not sure where I was going with that. The nausea has turned to word vomit. “I shouldn’t have done that.”

Sterling’s expression changes to worry. “You didn’t do anything wrong. Don’t let Josh make you think otherwise.”

Things were wrong before Josh showed up… Weren’t they? Securing the towel around my body, I need to escape. “A lot happened. I need time.”

Sterling catches my hand, and when I try to pull away, he tightens his grip. “Do you want to patch things up with him?”

Do I? Could we go back to just being friends? I bet that sex with his dad would nix that option. Being best friends with your stepmom isn’t cool.

Oh shit, where is my brain going?

“I really need to get home.”

“What do you want me to do?” Sterling takes a step back, his tone flat. “Apparently, I have to figure out what advice to give him.”

I take a second. After the way my professors looked at me and made me feel tonight, I know that I need more than Josh can give. “Josh and I are done. But thank you for letting me decide.” Uneasiness washes over me. Am I just a night of fun to Sterling? “Would you really be okay if I got back together with him?”

“Hell no. But parents make sacrifices.”

I don’t quite know what to do with that. Sterling just put his cum in me then told me I’m not the priority in his life. His son will always have a special place. I’m just… a birthday present. With a quick mental shake, I head to the door. Expectations should have been removed with our clothes.

The light of day and the university setting leave me vulnerable. Did Sterling or Rutherford brag to other professors? Have rumors started? Do other students know how foolish I am?

Belova walks up beside me as I pause by the back row in the classroom. “Hi, Mila.”

She continues to the front of the class, then turns. “What’s going on? Aren’t you coming?”

If I make Sterling’s class weird today, it’s going to be weird forever. I join her in the second row where we normally sit. I’ll show Professor Sterling that I can handle what happened.

He takes his place at the podium. His eyes glance in my direction and linger a moment too long.

“What was that?” Belova nudges me.

“What?”

“Did the dare pay off? I saw you and—”

“Shhh.” I shake my head. “I did my part, you did yours. The dare’s over.”

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