Page 37 of The Broken Beginning: Part One

I had to smile at that until my eyes landed on the clock beside my bed and I realized how late it was. The asshole didn’t get to fuck around with whomever at the club and then come here fresh from fucking his whores and straight to touching my baby.

Anger made me less cautious than I normally would be about things, so when I jumped out of bed and grabbed the baseball bat by my door, I didn’t bother to put on a robe over the nightie that I wore to bed. I had grown out of the damn thing with the pregnancy and the way my boobs swelled with breast milk while I slept, but what I hadn’t realized was that I started leaking since it was time to feed the baby.

So, I went charging into my son’s nursery wielding a baseball bat with a nightie that fit too tight and looked as though I had just entered a wet t-shirt contest.

“Whoa! Whoa! Whoa!” Merc yelled out quickly, trying to placate and calm me. “I have the baby in my arms,” he tacked on quickly.

“What in the hell are you doing here?”

“I live here, remember?” He asked.

“Since when?” I threw back at him.

His shoulders slumped in as he breathed out a heavy sigh. “I deserve that, Lily, but I promise shit is going to change.”

I laughed at his bullshit promise. “Oh, you’re right about that. Remember, my dad told me I could move up my timetable once the baby was born.”

It was weird because I could have sworn that I saw regret in his eyes before he lowered them back to the squirming boy in his arms. “I know, but Lily, no matter what, he’s mine too.”

“Really? Could have fooled me. You spent my entire pregnancy not giving a fuck about that baby. You never, not once, even referred to him as your kid. Did the DNA test come back to confirm paternity, so now, you’re sure?”

“I never doubted that you were pregnant with my kid, no matter what I said in anger.”

“That’s just it, this whole time you’ve been acting like I tried to trap you with a baby, but I’m more trapped than you will ever be. At least you have your club and all the whores you fuck. All of my dreams are gone.”

“What dreams did you have, Lily?”

“Did you think I didn’t have any aspirations for myself?”

“No. Yes. I don’t know. I never really thought about it.”

“Of course you didn’t because you’re the same selfish prick you’ve always been. Other people exist around you and guess what? They’re not put on the earth just to be your fuck toy or make your life run smoother.”

“I’m having a really hard time hearing anything you’re saying when you keep waving your tits around like that.”

“What?” I yelled angrily before glancing down and noticing for the first time that my top was very wet and transparent. Dammit. “Get up!”

“What? Why?”

I sighed at his cluelessness. “Well, I didn’t hose myself down for your benefit before coming in here. My boobs are leaking because it’s time to feed Declan.”

“Declan,” he whispered the name, almost as if he were in awe of it. “That’s what you named him?”

“Yeah, now get up.”

“You still haven’t said why.”

“I did. You’re just stupid.”

“Lily, I don’t want to fight with you.”

“Then stop being obtuse. I need to feed the baby. My boobs are leaking and there’s no point getting myself cleaned up until he’s fed. Now, move so I can sit down and get comfortable, because in case you’ve forgotten, I just had a baby two days ago and standing up while trying to feed him doesn’t exactly feel that great right now.”

“Son of a…” he mumbled under his breath, berating himself for once again being a thoughtless dick. Once he was on his feet, I slid into the chair and reached out for the baby. Unfortunately for me, Merc didn’t seem to know what personal space or privacy was so he stood there staring at me while I pulled one side of my nightie down enough that my boob could be taken out of it. The whole thing had to be popped out because of the fit of the stupid nightie. It made me wish, once again, that I still had a mom in my life who might have been able to tell me that I needed special clothes for this.

As Deck finally latched into place, I glanced back up to see that Merc had moved even closer and had squatted down to get a better view. “What the hell?” I asked, pulling him from whatever trance he’d been in.

“I’ve never seen anything like that before,” he admitted.

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