Page 52 of Letters to Lily

“Not now, Mom!” I almost yelled but managed to pull back on my frustration a bit.

“Kade, you need to listen. He heard from the man he hired today, and I have an address for Sasha.” Her smile stopped me in my tracks and kept me from losing my temper with her.

“I already know where she lives and where she is right now, because it’s not at her house. I was just on my way to go see her when you stopped me.”

“I want to go with you,” my mom said, putting her hand up to stop me from brushing past her.

“No offense Mom, but I don’t want you there when I finally get to see Sasha again for the first time in months. This whole situation is bad enough as it is. I really don’t think we need an audience to this particular reunion just yet.” I almost felt bad when my mom couldn’t disguise the hurt she was feeling.

“I just wanted to be able to tell her it was all my fault so she wouldn’t blame you.” Her sniffles kicked me in the gut right along with her words.

“Ah hell,” I pulled her into a hug and kissed the top of her head. “Mom, you don’t have to do that. I’m a big boy. My decisions and screw ups are just that, mine.”

“I know, but I want to see her too. She’s carrying my grandbaby, Kade.” I love my mom, but just once I wanted her to step back and stop being selfish. Sure, it was her grandbaby, but it was my baby, and the love of my damn life that was sitting in a hospital right now after getting hurt. I hadn’t even told my mom that yet. If I did, she’d never let me leave without her.

“Fine, but you will wait until I speak to her first. I will bring you in after I get to talk to her alone for a minute. There’s no negotiating that.” She nodded her head and moved past me to the passenger side of my Jeep.

We were just walking up to the hospital entrance when a familiar voice called out to me. “Dude! I haven’t seen you in forever.” He noticed my mom walking up behind me and called out to her too. “Helen, hey! It’s good to see you too.” Just as Jason came close enough to us that he was in my reach I pulled back my arm and then decked him with everything I had in me.

“What the fuck bro?” He shouted from where he’d fallen back on his ass.

“I’m not your fucking bro! What the hell did you do, Jason?” I shouted at him.

“Is that little cunt telling stories to get out of the fact that she cheated?”

I punched him in the face again. “Call her another name and see what happens. What. Did. You. Do?”

“I don’t know what you mean,” Jason played dumb while holding onto his furiously bleeding nose.

“You convinced her I left because of her? You convinced me that she cheated and didn’t want me anymore. Ringing any bells yet?”

“Look, if you two were meant to stick, it wouldn’t have been so easy as all that.” Yeah, he got punched again.

“She’s pregnant!” I screamed in his face as he cowered before me.

“Heh! I guess she cheated after all or didn’t wait long to get under the next guy, huh?”

“She’s pregnant with my kid, asshole!” The shock registering on his battered features told me he at least didn’t know that when he was mucking around with our lives. “She’s been doing it all alone and I’ve missed out on all that stuff with her pregnancy because of you. What in the fuck was going through your head that you would fuck that up for me?”

“I didn’t want to lose you as a roommate. You were the only family I had left, and I knew she was not going to allow you to live with me and her at the same time.”

I had no words. I couldn’t even comprehend losing so much because he didn’t want me to stop being his roommate. “FUCK!!!” I screamed right before my fists started flying again. “You stupid fucking fucker!” Another swing landed. “You still didn’t get what you wanted,” another punch. “I missed everything for this bullshit!” I saw red and flew hot in a blind rage.

“Kaden Miller, you need to stop right now,” my mom’s shrill voice filtered through the rage just enough to bring me back out of the red haze. Her hands tugged at me in an attempt to pull me away from Jason. I was being moved away from Jason’s slumped form when I finally recognized another voice that had been trying to get through to me.

“Damn dude. I didn’t think you actually meant…” his voice trailed off as he looked around and registered the security men who were currently advancing on us, along with an actual police officer. Jesus. I was about to be arrested.

“You have to tell her. Explain what happened. I will get to her as soon as I can, I promise. FUCK! I can’t believe I fucked this up, yet again.”

“Don’t worry,” Brad said as the police officer was cuffing my hands behind my back. “Your mom can follow behind and bail your dumb ass out, and I will tell Sasha what happened. I’m assuming she wasn’t even expecting you to show up here since I didn’t give you her number?”

I shook my head, and my mom had to go and piss me off once more. “I want to see her before…”

“Mom, I swear to fuck, if you even think of talking to that girl before I get to, I will never speak to you again!” Her eyes widened as I was being maneuvered away from the hospital and towards an awaiting police cruiser. “I mean it, don’t test me!”

“He blames me, rightfully so, but I don’t think he’ll ever truly forgive me.” My mom was saying to Brad as he wrapped an arm around her to offer some support. Just before we pulled off, I noticed hospital personnel were loading Jason onto a gurney and wheeling him inside. I supposed I was about to be handed some medical bills to deal with too. I couldn’t bring myself to regret beating the shit out of Jason, with the exception that I was currently being hauled off to jail instead of going to see my girl.

Chapter 23

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