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“I am just trying to work through something I can’t and don’t want to change. There’s a lot of losing it throughout the day, Miles.”

“What about us, Delilah?”

CHAPTER 28

US?

DELILAH

Us? Does Miles want an us? I’ve had daydreams about it, but that’s all they were.

“Do you want there to be an us, Miles?”

“I’ve never felt this way about someone. A baby certainly shakes things up, but let’s take it day by day and see what happens. I’ll never stop supporting you and the baby, no matter what happens.”

His eyes are so gorgeous and sincere, and I want to dive into them. My body propels me forward and I take a careful step in his direction.

“Okay. Are you sure? I know you tried this with Kim, and it failed.”

“I’ll never regret Lola, just like I won’t regret this new baby no matter what happens. I wasn’t meant to stay with Kim, and it worked out the way it was meant to. It’s tragic she died, but I can’t change it and I am going to make Lola’s life great because of it.”

“We’re still keeping it between us?”

I don’t want to see what will happen with Andrew yet, or the faces of my parents. They never imagined this for me.

“It’s a good idea while we figure out doctors and everything. Imagine how involved everyone will get when we tell them.”

He smiles and I think he’s happy for a second.

“Andrew?”

“We’re adults, Delilah. He needs to understand that and if anyone knows how much I love my daughter, it’s your brother. Andrew will have to deal with it.”

I have always focused on school and my career. Even this job was to save money to get a place and start in my field before I got distracted by Miles. A baby is such a road bump for me I can’t wrap my mind around it some days, but Miles has been through this and lived to tell the tale.

“You’ve done all of this. I should learn from you.”

I smile and Miles shrugs.

“It’s not easy and never will be. I depend on my family a lot and will be forever grateful to them and your family is amazing, too. We will love him or her completely and receive help. There will be two kids in the mix, so I imagine it only gets tougher.”

“Oh, God. I didn’t think about that.”

I laugh and it comes out in longer bursts to where I have to sit down on the couch. This is ridiculous and wonderful all at once and Miles joins me, sitting a few feet away.

“I don’t know what’s so funny or why I’m laughing. This is serious.”

“It is, but you’ll be okay, Delilah. We all will.”

I nod and take a deep breath as I look at Miles. He’s going to give me a beautiful baby and will be a great dad. He wants me. We’ll get through this.

The week passes quickly. Miles entrusts his team captain to the news and his wife watches Lola when we go to the doctor on Friday in a very nondescript building with everything new and high tech in the office. The woman is kind and answers all my questions reassuringly, not making me feel rushed at all. We do an ultrasound and find out I am ten weeks along and looking healthy.

The heartbeat is this whoosh sound, and it amazes me that I am growing a child. Of course, it’s mostly a blob now and there’s not much to see, but that little beating heart means everything to me. We get some pictures and leave to go to his car in the quiet parking garage.

“I can’t believe this is inside of me.”

I stare at the images and let myself feel overwhelmed for a moment.

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