Page 52 of Tainted Essence

She breaks the kiss, resting her head against mine as she holds my gaze. Lust and love swirl inside those gray-blue eyes. “I need you.” Three words, that’s all it takes for me to snap and flip us so she is pinned beneath me. Her blonde hair is fanned out around her, her lips swollen from my kiss and her chest rising and falling quickly as she waits for my response.

“Tonight, that is all I can give you.”

“Then give me all of you while you can.” She’s never let me see this side of her before, vulnerable. She is letting me see everything she feels for me and it’s breaking my chest open, my heart wanting to burst free and bury itself inside her because it knows the truth, she owns it. I hate the fear I harbor because of my past. I’ve never wanted a different life until now, and if I wasn’t so fucked up and broken I could have this incredible woman, who has shown me she loves me without uttering those three words.

I shut off my inner voice and capture her lips, needing her to distract me before I self-combust. She wraps her arms around my neck and holds me close so she can deepen the kiss, her nipples pressing through her cotton shirt and rubbing against my chest. The soft whimpers that escape her drive me crazy with need, my hips move on their own accord and grind into her pussy. She breaks the kiss, crying out. I growl, needing to hear more of those sounds. I rip the shirt down the middle and salivate at the sight of her dusty-pink nipples. I bend down and capture one in my mouth, she cries out and arches her back off the bed.

“Yes, Tay.” She moans when I bite down, I release it with a wet pop before latching onto the other one and paying it the same amount of attention. I love how responsive she is to my touch. She thrusts her hips up trying to gain some friction, if this is going to be the last time I get to have her like this then I want to savor every fucking moment. I trail kisses down her toned stomach. When she rests forward on her elbows to watch me, I flick my eyes to hers and keep them there as I slowly peel her sleep shorts down her legs. I toss them over my shoulder as she bends her legs at the knees and opens for me. I groan at the sight of her beautiful cunt, it’s perfect.

“I need to taste you, baby, you good with that?” I ask, needing her consent. She nibbles her bottom lip and suddenly looks worried, that’s when I remember. Koda. “Shit, I didn’t think–”

“I need you to go slow and keep looking at me, I want you to take away that horrible memory and replace it with this one.” The vulnerability in her voice pains me.

“Are you sure?”

She nods. I quirk a brow waiting for her to say the words. “Yes, I’m sure.” I do as she asked and keep my eyes on her as I press forward between her legs. She darts her tongue out to moisten her lips. I press a kiss to her inner thigh and shoot her a smile.

“Keep those pretty eyes on me, baby. It’s just me, he’ll never touch you again, I made sure of that.” Her face contorts in confusion, but before she can ask questions, I swipe my tongue through her folds, distracting her.

Destiny

I bite down on my lip to keep from screaming when he sucks my clit into his mouth, he’s barely touched me and I can already feel my orgasm cresting. I try to fight it off, frightened that when it does crash into me I’ll see Koda between my legs and not Taylan. He pushes a single finger inside me and I lose the fight to remain silent, I moan so loud. His tongue matches the tempo of his finger, the rhythm is punishing.

“I can’t,” I cry out when I feel my orgasm wanting to break me in half.

“Eyes on me, baby, I got you,” he reassures me, then sucks on my clit again. I lock my gaze onto his and trust that he will put me back together again if I break a part. Unable to stave it off any longer, the orgasm tears through me with such power that it robs me of breath for a second before a gut wrenching scream works its way out of me. I scrunch my eyes shut and throw my head back as the aftershocks take control of my body as he slowly works me down, lapping at my clit gently and easing his finger out.

I flop back against the bed panting and watch him rid himself of his shirt and pants. The second he pushes his boxers down his legs, his cock smacks against his abs, thick and hard. My mouth waters at the sight of it, knowing I’ll get to taste him shortly. He crawls up my body and uses his weight to pin me in place, his lips hover above mine.

“Taste yourself on my tongue,” he orders. I close the sliver of space between us and kiss him. The instant his tongue intertwines with mine I moan, loving the way I taste on him but it’s missing his cum and I need to taste us both together, one more time. He deepens the kiss as he lines himself up with my entrance. I feel his head press against my opening and my breathing turns erratic as excitement thrums to life inside me.

I break the kiss and stare up at him, emotions so strong slam into me. “I love you,” I whisper. I thought he would be shocked at my declaration but no, all I see is pity in his beautiful eyes. I refuse to allow him to withdraw inside himself so I press on. “I need you to make love to me, just this once. I need you to do this for me, Tay Tay, so I can let you go.” I hear the pain in my own voice. He closes his eyes for a second, taking a deep breath and then slowly pushes inside me as he blinks his eyes open and presses his forehead against mine.

“You have me,” he says against my lips as he buries himself inside me. We both cry at the feeling of being joined once again. Fuck, he stretches me perfectly. The burn of having him inside me again after so many weeks slowly eases as he begins to move inside me, while keeping his gaze locked on mine the entire time. This feels different compared to all the other times we’ve slept together, we’re letting our bodies say what our mouths can’t.

Pain and pleasure begin to burn inside my chest. I want the pleasure to outweigh the pain but it can’t because the pain inside me will always be present, knowing I can never have him. I would give anything for this to be a Disney movie where the girl gets the guy but it isn’t a movie, this is real life and sometimes you have to lose.

It’s better to have tasted love for a fleeting moment then to die never knowing.

“Taylan,” I grit out through clenched teeth.

He rests his elbows on either side of my head and pulls almost all the way out before slamming inside me again.

“You wanted slow, soft and vanilla.”

“What?” I gasp out around his next thrust.

“We don’t do soft, we do hard, feral, all-consuming sex. Your pussy is punishing you for denying it what it really wants.”

“What does it want?” I gasp out as he skims that sweet spot inside me.

“It wants me to fuck it like a starved man. You can’t come because you don’t really want me to fuck you this way, you want me to own you, consume and use you, don’t you, baby?” I’m ashamed to admit that his dirty promise has my pussy growing wetter at the thought of him slamming into me so hard that I’ll feel the ghost of him between my legs for days.

“Own me.” His eyes blaze. “Consume me.” He stops moving. “Use me then make me come so fucking hard on that cock, then come inside this pussy so you can suck it out and spit it in my mouth.”

Unbridled need unfurls in his eyes as he pulls out of me, flips me onto my stomach and grabs my hips, forcing me to my knees.

“This what you want?” he snarls as he slams inside me without warning. I cry out and slip forward. He grips my waist in a bruising hold as he fucks me. Fuck, this right here is what I needed—I thought making love would be special but I was dead wrong. Him dominating me and using my body for his pleasure is what I need. I can already feel my pussy clenching around his cock, I’m two seconds away from coming. “You take my cock so fucking good. baby.”

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