Page 15 of Firecracker

I sit back relieved I said it out loud. “Yep.”

“Holy. Fuckin’. Shit,” Izzy exclaims.

I laugh. “Yeah. He, of course, flew home and tried to turn everything around on me, saying that I was the one who talked about getting double penetrated. It was me that wanted Sam. It was me who enjoyed fucking him. Then he went into the I’m sorry bullshit. It was his fault for letting it happen and that it was the first and only time with Beth… Blah Blah Blah.”

Izzy, still in shock, hasn’t moved.

“Jesus Christ, Rube.” Izzy swallows and blinks a few times.

“I knew he wouldn’t leave unless I gave in, so I let him fuck me senseless. Which always made him feel better about himself. I played nice letting him think it was all okay but when he went back on tour, I got all my shit in order and moved out. I told him I moved out and that it was over when I knew he wouldn’t be able to fly home for a few months. So, he flipped out and did the next best thing.”

“What?” Izzy asks.

“He verbally lashed out at me thinking I would submit, cower back to him but that only made it easier for me to stay gone. This is the first time he’s been home since all of this went down. He thinks he’ll be able to come home, manipulate me and fuck me into submission.” I pause. “ Which is why I am here. I’m scared he will, and I want to be stronger before I see him again.”

Izzy moves to sit down. “Are you okay? I mean, are you mentally okay with what happened? Has Sam tried to contact you? Jesus, I can’t believe he shared you.. with Sexy Sam.”

I nod my head with a smile. “I know. It’s crazy. Yes, Sam left me a few messages, but I haven’t returned any of them.”

We both sit there in silence. It’s a lot to take in, especially with how possessive Brody has always been over me. Izzy and I have always called Sam, ‘Sexy Sam’ because he is so sweet and gorgeous. It was always our joke until Brody found out and flipped out. It took me months to get my head around why he shared me with Sam, so I know it will take Izzy a minute.

Izzy starts busting up laughing, throwing herself back into the chair swiveling it around. “Holy. Fucking. Shit! Ruby Rube got DP’d by Sexy Sam!”

I start laughing along with her tossing my head back against the chair looking up at the ceiling.

Izzy stops twirling around. “So, tell me... How was Sexy Sam?” she asked wide-eyed.

This bitch. Of all the things to ask.

I feel my face turn red and giggle. “He’s got a better body than Brody, that’s for sure. And Jesus he can fuck. I was rollin’ the whole time but damn it was good.”

We both continue to laugh, and that’s why she’s my sister. No matter what bad things happen, she always brings me to the light. I feel so much lighter already.

It’s going to be fine. I’m going to be okay.

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