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I sat straighter and leaned in closer to the two men. Finally, I’d get some answers. I also planned to pick their brains about other things.

Richard smirked and wrapped his arms around Ramón. “Pansexuality often gets confused with being bisexual. It’s not as talked about outside of our community bubble. If you’re bisexual, you like men and women, and maybe you prefer one over the other. But as a pansexual, gender doesn’t necessarily matter. You may go your entire life and never be interested in a man until you come across the right one, as you’ve seemed to have done. It doesn’t mean you’re attracted to men, per se. You’re simply attracted to who you’re attracted to, regardless of gender, if that makes sense.”

“I think it does,” I said. It was a relief to have some answers, ending my confusion. I’d never heard of pansexuality before. I thought there were only gays, lesbians, and bisexuals. It showed how little I understood about the world outside of heterosexuality.

“I just love the pans! Like it doesn’t matter who you are, you can fall in love with them,” Richard said, kissing Ramón’s cheek.

“Well, that explains my lack of… wigging out from being with a man for the first time. I was wondering what was going on with me. I appreciate the answers, man.”

“Of course. What else would you like to know?” Ramón asked.

Richard beamed. “Yes, we’d love to give you both some advice. Your newfound love is so sweet and adorable!”

“Sex,” I blurted.

“Jesus,” Logan said, sinking in his stool, trying to hide behind his beer, but I ignored him, desperately wanting to learn more about sex with a man because I had every intention of discovering it all with Logan. And I knew I’d screwed it up with Lauren.

Richard rubbed his hands together greedily. “Oh, this is just too delicious!”

“What have you two tried so far?” Ramón asked, his dark brown eyes glinting with mirth, but he was more reserved than Richard.

“Oh god…” Logan groaned.

I patted Logan’s thigh. “Don’t be embarrassed. We need answers.”

“Easy for you to say.”

I was definitely the more experienced and bolder one between us. I faced the two men and took a deep breath. But just because I was bolder didn’t mean I wasn’t a little mortified to be asking these questions. “We’ve done handies and blow jobs. We want to try to have sex.”

“That's the best part!” Richard exclaimed. “First, unless neither of you have had sex, get some condoms to protect yourselves. Then you need lube—lots of lube.”

Ramón nodded in agreement. “Mucho lube.”

“It’s up to you, but whoever decides to bottom—”

“Bottom?” Logan suddenly asked, now paying close attention.

Richard nodded. “Yes, you need to decide who’s doing the fucking or not. Some of us are strict tops or bottoms. Some of us are vers, meaning we take turns fucking each other.”

“I want that… to take turns,” I said.

“Then you need to decide who’s going to bottom first. Now, you can just go at it, or you can… clean yourself out. There are enema bulbs and such to do that, but it’s not vital. The most important thing is stretching the anus. You can’t just shove it in and start fucking.”

And that was precisely what I’d done to Lauren. No wonder she’d hated it.

Ramón demonstrated with his fingers in a poking motion. “That’s the best part. You can stretch the hole with your fingers, working him open. Even better, you can use your tongue to rim him.”

“Rim?” Logan said, his voice adorably too high and squeaky.

“Ugh, rimming is the best. Use your tongue to massage the muscle. It’s a very pleasing sensation.”

Ramón nodded, “Sí, very pleasing.”

I made a mental note to rim Logan if I were the one to top him. “Got it. What else?”

“Once the hole seems nice and loose, you can ease into him with your cock. Be gentle. He needs to adapt, or else it’ll hurt, and you could injure him. But once he’s ready, that’s when the magic happens. You gotta hit that prostate… the g-spot for men,” Richard explained.

After we talked about sex for a bit longer, Logan stood. “I’ll be back. I gotta take a piss.”

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