Page 75 of Beyond Reason

“I love you.” I whispered gently and smoothed my palms up until my hands rested on top of his. He twisted his wrists so our fingers were linked together, and that connection felt nearly as good as his cock diving into my ass. “I think I’ve loved you since the moment I met you—and it must have been before that. I think I’ve loved you in every life.”

Soulmates—Seth had talked about it. The flash drive had mentioned it. Soulmates… and I’d never really heard of a word that fit us more. When I looked down at him, his expression was open, raw and half torn between trying to process what he was feeling and already being overwhelmed with it. I knew it couldn’t be easy for him to exist in a body that let him feel so much more, but it didn’t stop him from embracing it. He tugged me forward so my frame covered his, so he could whisper his words against my lips.

“I love you, too. Even while I was gone, I was loving you.”

Fuck, I believed him.

I believed him as I rocked my hips down and rode his cock like it was the last time I’d ever get to—I believed him, and I promised myself that I would treat every single moment we had together like it was the last, because he deserved it.

Because we deserved it.

The angle of our bodies left my cock working against his stomach, and that friction alone was nearly enough to push me over an edge I already knew I was flying toward. I wanted to make this last, but his words, the sounds tearing from his throat, and our fingers still locked together on either side of his head was too much.

I dropped my mouth to his again and let instinct take over. The new position of our bodies left him rocking just so—and like he could read me perfectly, like he’d never forgotten a moment we’d been together, Xavier shifted slightly so the next time I moved down, he was gliding against my prostate.

It was good—so fucking good. The sound that tore from my throat seemed to spur him on, because he thrust again and his fingers in mine tightened.

“Tell me—” he gasped, nipping at my lower lip. “Tell me again.”

I didn’t have to ask what he wanted to hear.

“I love you, Xavier.” I gave him the words he wanted and rolled my hips again, taking him in deep and slow until I felt his body stiffen beneath me. He threw his head back on the pillow with a gasp.

He came, and the expression on his face, his lower lip caught between his teeth and his lashes fluttering to his cheeks, was so beautiful I thought I might get lost there—if I had to die, it was the perfect moment.

But then, his hand snaked between our bodies, and he caught my cock, stroking me hard and fast while he chased his pleasure. My orgasm almost caught me by surprise, and the burst of cum slicking across his chest was all I could focus on. Little stripes of white painted across strawberry birthmarks. Pleasure and pain, mixed on his skin.

I dropped to the bed beside him on a gasp, and he turned his head to smile at me with heavy eyes and an expression so possessive, it held me more than any collar ever could.

“Open up.”

I didn’t question him. My tongue lolled out obediently, and he swiped his fingers through the mess on his chest before feeding it to me—he didn’t give me time to swallow, though. His lips pressed against mine, and he invaded my mouth.

He drank the taste of my pleasure with his kiss. I melted into him, melted into the moment, and silently begged whatever gods existed that I would never know what it was like to be without him again.

Chapter 23

Xavier

My eyes kept flicking back to Axel and Kade in the room behind us. Seth and I sat out on the porch, but I could feel Kade’s gaze on me. I didn't know if it was a warning, or if he was simply making sure that nothing happened to the smaller man while he stood beside me.

“You know, I don’t remember him being quite so… protective of anything. Then again, my memories are all fucked up, so maybe he changed toward the end of his life.”

Seth’s eyes followed mine, and the soft smile that spread across his face was all sweetness, all warmth and love. He shook his head. “No, I’m pretty sure that’s a new development. He still doesn’t know what to do with it sometimes.”

I’d never heard anyone talk about a psychopath with so much fondness in their voice. Even Axel didn’t sound quite so love-struck when he spoke about me, and I wasn’t anywhere near the same level as Kade.

“Did something happen when they brought him back?”

Seth paused, and his lower lip caught between his teeth in a nervous gesture; I could almost feel Kade tensing inside.

“Not exactly. I think…” He hesitated, looking me up and down. “I mean, do you feel any different?”

“No, I—”

“No, not physically. I mean do you feel things differently? Are you feeling… more than you did before?” He paused again. “More emotions.”

He seemed flustered, a tinge of pink to his cheeks like he was embarrassed that he’d asked, or worried he’d asked too much.

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