“Mother, I’m an adult. If this is what Reed thinks will work, then I want to try.” A rueful smile comes over her cherub face and I say a silent prayer that she wants to stay at the farm for more reasons than just my training program.
Whatever this is between us, I’m sure she feels it too. This goes against every rule I’ve had. Don’t get involved with students. Don’t get involved with anyone really. And don’t trust.
But her eyes tell me all of that is old news, and there is a new agenda at work.
Her mother tightens her lips until they are a thin line of bright red. “Well, you are the best. A legend. If you think that is what will get Constance back in competition shape, then I suppose I approve. I just hope your father—”
I cut her off. “I’ll take care of having Ruby trailered to my facility. All her board and care will be handled under my direct supervision.”
Rudeness is not in my nature, especially with women, but in this case I need this conversation to be wrapped up and decisions made. My eyes come to rest on Constance. A reserved smile pulls at the corner of her lips and that smile is what I want to see every day for the rest of my life. It feels like I’m captured forever in the moment when our eyes stay attached, my own smile cresting my lips and I realize how long it’s been since I used those muscles in my face.
I’m so gone over this girl, I’m not even sure who I am anymore.
“So, I will see you in a few hours? I’ll be sure to get Ruby settled. Then we will settle you in your house.”
And into my life.
“Tonight?” Constance has a hint of fear and excitement in her voice.
“Why wait? I will keep you safe, and Ruby too. I promise.”
I say a quick goodbye. I want to stay, but I also don’t want to scare the living bejesus out of the poor girl, so like ripping off a bandage, I do it quick. A moment later I’m out the door and down the hall of the hospital, trying to remember how to breathe.
I have six small houses on the property at the facility, besides the main house where I live. They are for staff or live-in students, and I need her there. Secured and safe under my watch. My thoughts keep turning to where I’d like her, in my bed and in my life in ways I have never considered, but I’ll start with having her on the property. What she doesn’t know is I will be watching her every minute.
With a few phone calls, I’ve got a trailer on the way to pick up Ruby. I’ve sent Doc Mills, along with two of my best handlers and a couple of grooms, to meet me there. I admit, it’s overkill, but I’ve never been one to do things half way. And this feels like the most important moment in my life and I’m not going to let anyone fuck it up.
On the walk through the hospital halls, I keep playing over and over the way her hand felt in mine, the way her lips moved against me. My formerly hibernating dick is still thick and greedy inside my pants as I make my way to my car in the hospital parking lot. I know most guys would give their left nut to have what I’m packing down below, but right now, I’m so scared I will hurt her. I have no doubt I will make her mine, have her in every way. But I’ve been overly blessed shall we say.
The jokes about hung like a horse are not funny. If I truly hurt her, I’d kill myself.
My long-standing rule to never get involved with a student or even allow them to think that sort of thing is even a possibility seems to have a loophole when it comes to her. All the rules and control I’ve fortified myself with over the years seem to be falling away, one pillar at a time.
I make a couple stops on my way back, gathering some things I want for Constance when she arrives. By the time I reach my house at the farm, I’ve received text messages from my staff that Ruby is on the trailer without incident and will be arriving within the hour. I make a call to my barn manager, making sure that both Ruby and Constance’s accommodations at the farm are ready.
My head is swimming with how to train her and keep her safe, and balance that with these feelings I have for her. A relationship between a trainer and student is built on absolute trust, and the last thing I would do is to put her in danger. I vow to maintain my control, to train her as she needs and yet figure out a way to make her mine.
Because that much she is. Mine.
Dark memories crawl up my spine and I realize even after such a short time, how Constance could hurt me. Shatter me.
All the waiting, all the years have come to this, and it’s my job to figure out how to bring her to me and give her everything she deserves.