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Whatever.

I’m here for you.

And I love you.

Even if you never love me back in the same way, I’m gonna keep loving you until the day I die.

I want you to be happy.

I want you to be free to make your own choices without worrying what everyone’s going to think of you.

Screw them.

Follow your heart.

Live your dreams.

You deserve it.

You are worthy of every good thing, and I want that for you.

I feel like I’m rambling now, but I hope you can hear my heart.

Find what makes you happiest and go after that thing.

I should have done that. After the swimming hole, I should have gotten over my damn self and told you how I felt. But I chickened out, and then Hudson caught your attention. Even then, I should have kept myself in your life. And I never should have pushed you out the door when you told me you were pregnant.

I’m sorry for being a jealous jerk. I’m sorry for not being the friend you needed.

But I’m here now, and I’ll never push you away from me again.

I promise.

I’m yours forever, TT.

B x

Do I add more x’s and some o’s? I don’t know.

With my thumb hovering over the Send button, I hold my breath, close my eyes, and push that little dart icon before I change my mind.

The rain starts pattering on my windshield as the email whooshes to her inbox. I stare at those droplets, running down the glass like tears, and wonder if I’ll ever get a reply.

CHAPTER 52

TAMMY

Hudson texted me to say he’d be home late because a last-minute meeting came up. I paced the floor, wondering if that was the truth.

Is he really in a meeting?

Ugh, am I ever going to be able to trust him again?

Give yourself a break. He cheated on you!

I nod, gripping my arms and trying to lean into that fact, yet unable to ignore the question that’s been nagging me.

Why’d he cheat?

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