Page 131 of Puck It!

I sure don't know how I feel about it.

Loving You

Macie

We got home late last night, and now it's morning. The guys are all at practice to prepare for the next game, which is the day after tomorrow.

Now that I'm home, all I can think about is the club. I still have no idea what I want to do.

So today, I'm going to visit the place Kenny showed me. The place I have a key to that could easily be mine, an owner of something.

I do my thing, throw my hair up into a messy bun, because I honestly don't feel like dealing with the golden mess. Slide into some leggings, throw on a sweatshirt and I'm ready for the day. I make my way out the door.

It's a beautiful day today. The chill in the air is starting to disappear, replacing it with the heat from the sun and changing the temperature. It's almost my favorite time of year, summer.

I walk to building, enjoying the fresh air, and well, it's not far. I can get to everything by walking, they are all close to each other. A plus in this situation.

I enjoyed my walk. It gave me time to think and clear my head a little before getting here. I unlock and open the door, making my way inside.

I take a moment to look around more, inspecting every crevice, and let my mind wander. Let myself think of a plan, see if I can make a picture in my head of what this place could be.

I mean I did the design in Kenny's club.

I walk to the windows and sit on the ledge looking back into the open space. Looking from the ceiling to the floor, my mind explodes.

The pictures come into sight; I can see what I can do to this place. The tables and chairs, sending a vibe from the bar Dad and Paul used to take us to, with the live bands. But then the best part, the stage. Center of the room with aerial silks hanging, smaller stages off to the sides with hoops hanging. A main stage by the window I'm sitting at, opening this window more, creating a beautiful natural background of the city outside. An area for live bands.

My mind explodes and now my heart races; Do I really want this?

I've kind of already accepted some jobs. I could still do them and just over see this. Dance when I want, or big shows once a weekend. So many spiraling thoughts are rummaging their way in my brain.

Taking a deep breath letting it out with a sign as I pull my phone from my pocket. Pulling up Keri's name, I hit the call button and it rings and rings before her voice rings in my ear, "Hey girl."

"Hey babe."

"Are you going to tell me what you've been wanting to talk about now? You've kind of had me on edge all week." She spits. I have kept her in the dark all week.

I giggle with my apology, "I'm sorry, I needed a big minute to think about this one."

"Well fuck me, just tell me Macie." She laughs.

So, I do. I tell her everything, even though Kenny told me not to say anything about the money and all the details with it. I trust her, she will never replace Holly, but she has done a damn good job at filling very big shoes.

With her on video, I show her the place as I tell her what my mind has envisioned. When I came to a pause, hoping for something to come from her mouth instead my own voice burned in my ears from talking.

"I'm in; I'm so fucking in!" She snaps quickly with her laugh.

And I giggle my words, "Just like that?"

"Just fucking like that! Macie, I love it here, but I don't want to be here forever. I've always wanted something like this."

"And I miss you, Macie, it's not the same here, it makes me want to leave more."

I smile with my nod, "I understand that feeling Keri, and I miss you too."

I take a deep breath, swallowing it down as I look around as Keri asks, "Are you sure this is what you want Macie?"

"I don't know Keri, but I'll know soon. Kenny will be here tomorrow for my final decision."

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