Page 106 of Waiting For Fate

“You honestly didn’t know?” I shake my head.

Should I have? I guess I could have assumed as much after knowing how we both felt back then, but a teenage crush is different than waiting your whole life to have sex with someone.

“Sawyer, I didn’t just have a crush on you when we were younger. I had fallen in love with you. You had more of my heart than I ever realized I had given you. I daydreamed about what it would be like to be yours almost every day—to the point I felt a little creepy if I’m honest.” We both let out soft laughs, then she continues. “I wanted you to want me back so badly, and when you left, I never thought of anyone the same way I’d thought of you.”

“And now?” She frowns at me, sliding onto my lap.

“What do you mean and now?”

“Do you still only think of me?”

“Why are you asking me this? Have I done something to make you think differently?” I begin shaking my head before she even finishes.

“No. I just can’t stop thinking about that guy showing up and how he wanted to take you away to another country. I just…” Fuck, I hate this. “You say you’re worried I’ll walk away again, and I’ve assured you that it will never happen. But I’m scared too, Dove. Because what if you realize I’m not the guy you fell in love with all those years ago? That if who I am now isn’t what you want anymore. What if one day you wake up and decide you don’t love me, but it was the idea of me you fell so hard for. You’re my future Leah, my forever. The only life truly worth living, is one with you in it. So what if—” She presses her finger to my lips, gripping both sides of my face and kissing me. Kissing me as if I’m it for her, as if she’s promising not to disappear from my life, like I’ve begun to fear she will.

I always knew I was a jealous motherfucker, but I didn’t realize how ill I truly felt at the thought of not having her anymore.

“You’re not the boy I fell in love with in high school, Sawyer. You’re the man who came back for me. I’ve fallen in love with this version of you tenfold. I’m not walking away either. I promise.” I wrap my arms around her tighter, burying my face in her chest, breathing her in, hoping that I can somehow tether her soul to mine. Then she wraps a hand around my length and without warning, she slides herself onto me.

“Fuck, baby.” I growl, sucking in a breath through my teeth as she bites down on her bottom lip.

“I. Am. Yours.” Every word comes out in sync with her sliding up and down my cock. “Only. Always. Forever.” Then, as she continues to ride me, she pulls my lips to hers, sliding her tongue across my lips and I feel it.

The tethering of our souls.

Only. Always. Forever. Mine.

Me

Hey man, you guys doing anything tonight?

Devon

Hell yeah man. Going to Fr33style. You coming out?

Me

Thought I might bring my girl out, yeah.

Devon

My man. I’ll tell my boy to add you to the list with a plus one.

Me

Thanks Dev.

Devon

No sweat. Maybe you can get the other g-pa’s out of the house for the night.

Me

Who the hell are the g-pa’s???

Devon

You know, you, Matty, Javi… All settled down and happy and shit. Just like my grandpa.

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