Page 55 of Falling in Reverse

Dad lied to me.

He filled my head with a life that was never fully mine.

I’m not an Astor.

I’m the offspring of a piece of shit.

A traitor.

Someone who split a community in two over whatever the hell his reasoning was. The reason why I have to watch my sisters like a fucking hawk.

My heedfulness promptly jumps back to Dad and the weariness of energy that has been stripped from his body since the stroke.

Why, Dad?

Why didn’t you just tell me?

Maybe so I didn’t feel like this? And what am I going to do?

The idea of calling him out doesn’t sit well with me at all.

In fact, it’s going to inflict more stress that he doesn’t need.

It’s imperative that he gets well. That he’s around for Mae and Ellie. No world of mine doesn’t include him in it, and I can’t mentally survive without him.

Dad is my rock, he’s my everything. This man has loved me my whole life.

And I love him more than anything.

My first love, and he’s going to stay that way with me.

BAY: And you’re sure the lab was far enough that Emilio couldn’t reach it?

TRAVIS: Montana. I highly doubt he has connections there.

A primal urge to destroy said lab facility slams into my head as it begins to throb.

I’m not sure how I’m going to tell Levi. How I’m going to bring this up to Dad without causing alarm and fear?

The one I’m most concerned about is my best friend. I saw him lose his entire shit the night at the shipping yard and what he wanted to do with Torin.

BAY: Thanks, Trav. I appreciate you.

I have nothing else to say. He did exactly what I needed him to do, but I wish he hadn’t.

Even though I fucking told him.

I’m such a dumbass. Why did I do this to myself?

TRAVIS: Do you want me to come over?

BAY: No, it’s getting late. I’ll text you tomorrow.

TRAVIS: I’m done studying and I’m way ahead in my classes.

TRAVIS: You don’t have to do this alone.

BAY: There’s no other way. I can’t tell Dad. I just can’t.

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