Page 105 of Bona Fide

"You don't feel it?" His eyes search my face. "Because you're trembling in my arms, and I'm not sure if you're scared of me or because you miss it—us.”

“I’m not afraid of you, it’s just that we’re not—”

“Together.” He nods behind me. “Because of him.”

"Alright," Grant objects. "Stop giving her a guilt trip about shit in the past. It was my fault too, Jed. I wanted her, you had her, and when she came to me, I didn't resist it."

“She meant more,” Jed rebuffs, still keeping his gaze locked on mine. “You meant more.”

"I don't—" Grant's hand finds my forearm, but he doesn't yank.

“You’re making her uncomfortable,” he accuses. “C’mon, Jed, you’ve had a rough—”

“Am I?” Jed quakes. “Did I turn into someone that you can’t stand being close to? Because I’m different now, Rea. I’m so much different than before.”

My fingers dig into the leather of his coat before I shake my head. “You’re still Jed to me. I’m not scared.”

“I am,” he babbles. “I’m scared that you’ll rip me in half.”

Grant gives me a weak tug. "She's not going to—" I seize his shirt to get him to shut up while I give Jed a faint smile.

“I’m not going to insert myself into your lives again,” I deliver. “Because I’m a wrecking ball just waiting for a wall to go through. A life to fuck up. A mess for someone else to clean up. You won’t have to worry about me.”

Jed leans close to me. "But I do." His lips gently press into mine, and when I don't pull away, he coaxes my mouth wider. Our tongues immediately meet, and a shrill of lust hits right between my legs.

I feel Grant begin to step away, but I tighten my hold on his shirt because I'm not here to start a brotherly war again. I'm here to make peace, I guess of some sort.

I broke both of them. So the least I can do is mend some of their pain like how I'm using them to forget mine.

Jed moans before his fingertips press into my lower back, then I break off from him. Yanking Grant closer to me, I turn in his direction and plaster the same kiss to him, keeping Jed at my side.

Grant’s hand leaves my forearm and starts a trail up my tricep and to my face, where he cups my cheek. Jed remains with me latched around his arm while his free one falls on my stomach.

Our kiss breaks, and no sooner than I can catch my breath, Jed drapes his palm around the back of my neck and brings me back to him. Our mouths play the same dance while Grant’s chest hits my back. My body buzzes between the two, crushed into a Hardison sandwich.

Grant’s hands roam my ribs then encase around under my breast as Jed continues to battle me with his tongue, sucking the breath out of me and replacing it with his.

I feel the fabric of my dress slowly drag up my thighs, replaying the same scene that I did at the bar in Riverview. Knowing these two men, two parts of my past, makes me feel different. I’ve had both of them, their hearts in each of my hands, and I broke them.

I hurl my mouth from Jed’s and bump into Grant’s chest.

“Shit,” I mutter. “I don’t want to hurt—”

“Kiss me, Rea,” Jed replies. “I’d rather have half of you than nothing at all.”

"I'm going to have to agree with my brother," Grant whispers in my ear, his hand right above my ass. "How about we call this a trip down memory lane, but with two big dicks to tame you down." His lips clasp around the column of my neck, and an involuntarily moan escapes my lips.

Jed's hand finds the front of my panties, and he gently begins to rub his finger over my clit. "You in, Rea?"

I don’t answer because I don’t know what to do.

I want the escape and memory loss. I've heard my phone vibrate in my purse three times already since Jed entered the room, and it makes me anxious and angry.

Wade will never leave me alone. He's one to never give up when he wants something, and that's dangerous because that'll be three strikes for me.

“Let me turn my phone down,” I whisper against Jed’s lips, pulling myself from between them while Grant lets his fingers graze my ass for added measure.

Fishing it out, I turn it on silent and place it on the coffee table, peering back up to see both brothers silently waiting for me.

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