Shame and arousal mix with the memories of everything Sin had made me do. I’d done them willingly. First out of a forbidden thrill, and then out of an irresistible urge to please him.
Eli stares at me, eyes intense. “You opened that pretty mouth to take some guy’s dick, and you don’t know who it is?”
“You saw the blindfold, right?” A wave of shame makes me glance away from him.
“Did it turn you on?”
“You said you watched the video. You know the answer to that.”
“Was it the first time you’d met him? You just stripped and got on your knees for him?”
“It wasn’t like that.” Warmth heats my cheeks. “I guess everyone knows Arabella Gray isn’t so sweet and innocent anymore.”
The mattress moves as Eli drops down beside me. “Sweet and innocent are overrated, Hellcat.”
“How many condoms do you have?” I roll over onto my side and reach for the button of his jeans. I want to purge the thought of all the boys at school watching the intimate moment I shared with Sin. “I think the weed has turned me into a nymphomaniac.”
Eli grabs my wrist, the fingers of his free hand trace over the cigarette burns on my skin. “Where did you get these?”
I glance at them. “One of Elena’s boyfriends when I was six. He was drunk and used me as an ashtray. He broke my arm when I cried out.”
I force away the painful recollection of Elena driving me to the hospital, and I go back to unbuttoning his jeans. My hand slips beneath his boxer briefs, and I curl my fingers around the hard, hot girth of his cock.
“Put your dirty hands and mouth all over me again.”
Chapter 21
Eli
“You’ve already had my dirty hands all over you. I think it’s time you returned the favor, don’t you?” I settle onto my back and tuck my hands behind my head. “You’re already an orgasm ahead of me.”
“You’re keeping count?” Her fingers are warm around my dick, but her grip is gentle.
“Someone has to.” I smirk at her scowl. “What are you doing down there?” I direct my gaze to where her hand is in my jeans. “Touch me like you mean it, Hellcat.”
“I don’t want to hurt you.”
That makes me laugh. “Yes, you do. You want to see me bleed.” I push my hand beneath the denim and curl my fingers around hers. “Grip harder.” I adjust her hold on my dick and show her how to pump up and down.
My head drops back against the pillow, eyes closing, as we both stroke my erection.
“That’s it. Take it out and wrap your lips around it.”
“You want me to suck your dick, Eli?”
“Pretty sure that’s what I just said.” I grunt when she pulls my dick free of my jeans, her fingers squeezing around my length. “Mouth, Hellcat.”
“I like that better than Princess.”
My lip curls. “It fits you better than Princess. But I always knew there was a hellcat lurking beneath the pretty pink shell.” I open my eyes to find her staring at me. “What?”
She shakes her head. “Nothing. You just reminded me of someone for a second.”
“Oh? Who?” I need to be more careful. We seem to be on the precarious edge of … something right now. But if she links me to Sin, she’ll hate me more than she already does.
“Doesn’t matter.” Her head turns away, and her tongue sweeps across her lips. “I’ve only done this once.” She kneels beside my hip and slowly lowers her head. “What should I do?”
Fuck.