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“No,” I admit. The thought is uncomfortable. Kai stokes up something inside me that I don’t understand yet.

Levi tries to hide his smile by drinking his tea. “Do you want to do it again?”

“Maybe. But like you said, I don’t want to do anything damaging to us. You’re the most important thing to me, Evie,” I say. “And we don’t know if he’d even want to do anything.”

Levi stretches over the counter and plants a light kiss on the corner of my lips. “I love you,” he says. “But to lay all the cards on the table, I know you want to fuck him which I don’t mind because I want that as well. I also know he wants us too, and despite his hesitations, I think we should propose it and see how he feels about it.”

“Propose what?” I ask.

Levi’s smile is full of that playful mischief, like Kai said, it’s like he’s in on a secret no one else is. “We fuck him, but we stay as us. If it’s a no, that’s fine, we move on, but something tells me it won’t be.”

I lift an eyebrow. “Because this kind of arrangement always works out.”

Levi laughs quietly. “So, we have good ground rules and clear communication.”

I think about it for a moment. He makes it sound so easy but maybe he’s right. We’re all adults and maybe all we need to do is to fuck Kai once to get rid of this intense feeling.

“You’re sure about this?” I ask.

Levi shrugs. “Only if you are.”

Am I? No.

Do I want to? Fuck yes.

“Okay, let’s ask him,” I say after a moment.

Levi’s lips spread into a grin. It’s been clear from the moment I met him; I’d follow him into the dark if he let me hold his hand.

Chapter Seven: Kai

When Monday comes, it feels like the last forty-eight hours have been some sort of strange dream. Connor is sitting at his desk next to me and I hand him a cup of coffee from downstairs as I sit down. He lets out an obnoxious moan when he takes the first sip.

“You’re irreplaceable.”

“I know.” I wink, powering on the monitor.

“How was your weekend?” he asks.

I glance at him for a moment. I spent the day on the couch with Jenna yesterday. When I walked into the kitchen on Sunday morning, she had eyed me with arched eyebrows. When I’d left Anant’s party, I hadn’t told her all the details, just that she had my location and I’d be fine. I told her about everything that happened, and she squealed, kicking her feet excitedly. I had to calm her down by explaining it was a one-time thing even if the admission made my stomach sink.

Now, I turn back to Connor and he’s still looking at me expectantly. I clear my throat. “Yeah, the weekend was great. Nothing too crazy happened.”

Even if Jenna doesn’t believe me, it was a one-time thing. We all just got caught up in the moment and when I realised that; I knew I had to leave. Levi is technically my boss even if I’m not in his line of reporting plus Cole’s father literally owns A-EYE. I can’t afford to mess this up for myself because I’m desperate for some dick–no matter how beautiful that dick is.

But a part of me knows there’s more to it than my job.

There was something about the way both Cole and Levi made me feel. From the moment they kissed me on the rooftop, I felt it, my complete surrender. When Cole told me to get on my knees for Levi, I did it almost robotically, like I had stopped thinking.

It was disconcerting, the feeling of not being in control of anything I did. Yet, as disconcerting as it was, it felt good, like getting to taste something forbidden and becoming ravenous.

I want more, I know that, but I shouldn’t.

“Hmm,” Connor hums next to me. “Something about you is different.”

I give him a level look, feigning indifference.

“Did you get laid?” he asks quietly.

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