Rising, she grazed her teeth over my throat. Then, before I could react, she had a leg over my hip and whirled me around. I fell easily, letting her slide over me and enjoying the view as she straddled me. “I can definitely be your good girl,” she said as she slid suggestively over my cock. “But tonight, I’m thinking of being a little wicked.”
Cocking my head, I chuckled. “Tonight, I’ll allow it.”
Grabbing her hips, I surged inside of her, enjoying every inch of her tight, wet heat as it surrounded my cock. We both moaned as I filled her. “Baby, you are so perfect.”
For a moment, I thought something snarky would come out of her mouth, but she moved a few times, pulsing me, and then she leaned down to kiss me, slow and easy, cradling my face while she fucked me. I gave her all the control I could before I took over, flipping her under me until she shuddered, squeezing her pussy around me until her orgasm triggered my own.
She was mine. I knew that with a blinding intensity. It didn’t matter that she would never be my mate. She was mine. That child was mine. And nothing that she could ever say or do would change that. I wasn’t giving them up.
But I couldn’t tell her that. Nothing would make her run faster. I’d broken her, just as everyone else had, and now I was doing whatever I could to fix her.
49
Maya
“Take a deep breath, and try to work through the pain.”
“Pain?” My eyes flew open. “You said this was painless!”
Above me, Lunessa rolled her eyes while Janelle and Irene both grimaced. It was early afternoon the next day, and since there was a baby still in the den, everyone was tiptoeing as quietly as possible. I should have asked more questions when Lunessa put up a soundproof barrier.
“Yeah. I did. Unfortunately, Lunessa had a journal where someone had documented the effects of the spell. The good news is that it was effective, but the bad news was that it apparently hurt quite a bit while it was doing the healing. Afterward, there was no pain. There are no side effects,” Janelle assured me. “It’s essentially a regrowth spell.”
I didn’t feel any calmer. Instead, I sat up from the hard bench that I was lying on and frowned. “Can you regrow something from nothing?”
“Oh, but it’s not nothing. We found part of your bond. A newly formed bond, which no doubt means that it’s a mating bond,” Janelle said as she started to vigorously shake a glass jar. A brownish mixture inside darkened as the items started to mix.
“What?” I said as my heart pounded in my chest. “I’m sorry, what did you just say?”
“I said it’s your mating bond. With Rhyson. I’m not sure how it even formed, but it’s not connecting to anything. Hopefully, this connects it to you and any other bonds that might exist that we can’t see, like the one between you and your wolf.”
She continued to speak like she hadn’t just dropped a bomb on me. I was still trying to process it. “What makes you think that?”
Lunessa sighed. “You really are thick, aren’t you? Have you pledged yourself to an alpha lately?”
“No.”
“It’s a new bond, Maya, and new bonds are only formed two ways. A mating bond and a pledged bond. Obviously it’s your mate bond. It’s there. It just needs to snap into place.”
A mating bond. To Rhyson. Tears formed just behind my eyes, but I refused to let them fall. Just because it was a mating bond didn’t mean that it was to Rhyson. I’d met dozens of wolves on this mountain, not to mention all the wolves that were at the ball where I’d been rejected. They had no way of knowing who it belonged to. They just assumed.
“You can’t tell anyone. You can’t tell him,” I whispered.
Janelle’s eyes widened. “What? This is going to work, and he’s going to know.”
“If it’s a mating bond, then shouldn’t his have snapped into place? Shouldn’t he know?” I demanded before I shook my head. “It’s not him. It’s someone else.”
“First of all, we don’t know that for sure. We don’t know enough about how the mating bond works,” Irene said gently. “Secondly, if we don’t fix it…”
“You said it yourself that you don’t know enough to know that it belongs to him. If you even tell me that I have a newly formed bond, he might think that maybe it is his. He could claim me as his mate, and then next month meet his real mate, and what do you think he’s going to do then?” I asked hoarsely. “Rhyson can’t deny a real bond, but it will destroy him to turn me away again. He’s a good wolf. A good man. I won’t let that happen to him. If we fix it today, and it snaps into place, then great, but if it doesn’t, then nobody tells him. Nobody tells anyone. Do you understand?”
The three witches nodded, and I lay back down and closed my eyes. Since Anna’s child had been born, Rhyson hadn’t been able to keep his hands off me. They were on my belly, cradling me, and he whispered things to our child, things that made me know our son would be safe.
And things about me that made me want to weep with joy. He had no idea how close he was to breaking me. To making me tell him that I was his in every way. That I loved him.
And it’s because I loved him that I held back. He deserved a mate. A true mate. And I knew that if he did find her, he’d still care for our son. He’d still raise and protect him. But if I wasn’t his, then he’d be able to let me go and be happy.
I was never destined for happiness. Maybe I was just destined to be a mother. To raise a son with a good man.